Venting Letting go

[goodoldnoname923]

It's something i've always struggled with…letting go of the past,of old friends of anything really. I had a friend for 2 years that left me for my shitty actions and she meant the absolute world to me…and since then even now i'm not fully over her…now i lost a friend like that again that i'd known 6 years…a friend that meant way more than she did towards the end…and its broken me shes gone…is killing me that i know its all my fault…and i hate that she managed to replace me so easily…and rightfully and understandably no one fucking cares of gives a shit…they all want me to suffer for what i did…they won't help me get her back they won't help me find peace…they all want me to suffer and I can't deal with her being gone I can't deal with all the hate I receive I can't deal with all these issues i have that continue to hurt and push people away…i can't deal with it anymore but I can't seem to fucking find a way out…

 

[AkaRed]

It's really hard when we lose ones we loved, especially if it's by our own actions. Even years later, I do still think of the hurt I've caused others in the past. My mistakes and actions will never be forgotten, and I can't take those back. All I can do is wish them well, and think of them occasionally in silence.

I don't think we really ever get over losing those we cherish, regardless of how it happened.

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