why am i alive?
Look where i ended
- Oct 18, 2023
- 105
Hello Mother,
I hate you. I hate you so much. I hate the way you tell me I have no right to be sick. I hate the way you always tell me im overreacting. The way you tell my therapist that im lying. The way you say im not valid. The way you insult me and deny it later. I hate the way you take everything from me and still pretend that I was my Fault. I hate that I thought it was normal. I thought feeling judget around your parents is normal. I hate you with all my heart but, I love you. I love the mother that laughed with me as a kid. I love the mother that watched movies with me. I love the mother that celebratet christmas and birthdays like we were the most important to you.
But shes gone. The mother I love is just a memory and I accept that. I accept that your love for me has borders. It isn't Infinit like people tell me it should be.
You only love half of me and that's ok. But please leave me alone. Stop hunting me down and taking every Piece of happiness I obtain. LET ME LEAVE!
I HATE YOU FOR ALL YOU DID.
Your second daughter.
I hate you. I hate you so much. I hate the way you tell me I have no right to be sick. I hate the way you always tell me im overreacting. The way you tell my therapist that im lying. The way you say im not valid. The way you insult me and deny it later. I hate the way you take everything from me and still pretend that I was my Fault. I hate that I thought it was normal. I thought feeling judget around your parents is normal. I hate you with all my heart but, I love you. I love the mother that laughed with me as a kid. I love the mother that watched movies with me. I love the mother that celebratet christmas and birthdays like we were the most important to you.
But shes gone. The mother I love is just a memory and I accept that. I accept that your love for me has borders. It isn't Infinit like people tell me it should be.
You only love half of me and that's ok. But please leave me alone. Stop hunting me down and taking every Piece of happiness I obtain. LET ME LEAVE!
I HATE YOU FOR ALL YOU DID.
Your second daughter.
