Less than 24 hours

[wiltedLotus]

In my final 24 if all goes according to plan. Currently in my motel near where I'm gonna exit tomorrow. I scoped out the spot earlier and it's perfect and the only issue is getting stopped by someone…but I'm going by way of water, weighted down, so all I need to do is make it to the water and then I will finally be free…they won't have time to get to me because I'll sink too quickly…getting that last minute paranoia and anxiety that I'll be intercepted…but no fear about death or grief over my wasted life or guilt about who's staying on longer than me…I just feel Ready.

 

[jodes2]

Oh no! I hope you're not going to drown yourself!! Isn't that a terrible way to go??? My thoughts are with you

 

[SectOfValtiel]

I wish there was a better way for you, it sounds awful
But I know thats not always the case
I hope you find some peace wherever you end up- you deserve it despite what this world has shown you
Good luck

 

[EndlessDespair]

In my final 24 if all goes according to plan. Currently in my motel near where I'm gonna exit tomorrow. I scoped out the spot earlier and it's perfect and the only issue is getting stopped by someone…but I'm going by way of water, weighted down, so all I need to do is make it to the water and then I will finally be free…they won't have time to get to me because I'll sink too quickly…getting that last minute paranoia and anxiety that I'll be intercepted…but no fear about death or grief over my wasted life or guilt about who's staying on longer than me…I just feel Ready.

I really hope that you can find the strength during that 24hrs to continue life just a bit longer, but I understand that the pain can be unbearable most of the time.

If you still want to go when the time comes, i recommend that you please reconsider your method! I have read so much about how painful drowning is. Water rushing down your lungs while you gasp for air is just painful to think about. You deserve better, especially at your last moments.

Wish you the best, and hope you find your peace

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[Nirrend]

In my final 24 if all goes according to plan. Currently in my motel near where I'm gonna exit tomorrow. I scoped out the spot earlier and it's perfect and the only issue is getting stopped by someone…but I'm going by way of water, weighted down, so all I need to do is make it to the water and then I will finally be free…they won't have time to get to me because I'll sink too quickly…getting that last minute paranoia and anxiety that I'll be intercepted…but no fear about death or grief over my wasted life or guilt about who's staying on longer than me…I just feel Ready.

Sad to see someone else leaving.. wishing you the best ❤

Love ❤

 

[ianista]

Wish you the best, i hope you find the freedom you are looking for

 

[Shivali]

:Herz: Good luck my friend

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish you had better options. Sorry to see you go. May you find peace if you go through with it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I envy those who manage to succeed with the drowning method, it sounds like such an horrible and difficult way to ctb but I do understand having limited options of ways to be free from this world. But it must be a relief having no fears associated with death, I wish you freedom from all suffering.

 

[SwissSuicideLady]

I wish you good luck

 

[almaranthine]

Best wishes. I hope you find the peace you're are looking for

 

[Exact Change]

I'm thinking about you and hope you find peace

 

[WaveringLight]

I wish you had a more peaceful method available to you... Drowning sounds pretty cruel. I hope you find whatever peace you are looking for.

 

[wiltedLotus]

Oh no! I hope you're not going to drown yourself!! Isn't that a terrible way to go??? My thoughts are with you

Well I wasn't able to execute it yesterday, I had gotten so hyped about it that I hadn't even formulated the plan to the exact moment…and I fucked up, I was out there yesterday morning and there was no one around at all and I could've done it but I didn't bring any of the gear…and there's harbor patrol so I think my survival instinct is manifesting into my paranoia…
And no, apparently drowning is horrible for like 30 seconds to 2 minutes max before you're unconscious and the rest of your body dies…whole process takes like 10 minutes altogether…I'd suffer a limb getting chopped off while awake to be done with this bullshit.
Executed plan is happening tonight…wish me luck!

 

[MidnightDream]

Well I wasn't able to execute it yesterday, I had gotten so hyped about it that I hadn't even formulated the plan to the exact moment…and I fucked up, I was out there yesterday morning and there was no one around at all and I could've done it but I didn't bring any of the gear…and there's harbor patrol so I think my survival instinct is manifesting into my paranoia…
And no, apparently drowning is horrible for like 30 seconds to 2 minutes max before you're unconscious and the rest of your body dies…whole process takes like 10 minutes altogether…I'd suffer a limb getting chopped off while awake to be done with this bullshit.
Executed plan is happening tonight…wish me luck!

Good luck <3

 

[wiltedLotus]

So I got delayed, lack of actual planning and thinking about execution and my stupid ass going out to the pier so much…but I have reconfigured it, gotten it all the planned and ready, and should be out of here tonight! Still, only fear is the fear of failing..all I have had to do when I start to waver is read my journal from the last year to see that I'm going completely fucking insane, gotta get out now before it gets really bad
So thank you all for your support! If I'm not back on I either succeeded or failed and will be back on when I get my cell phone back from the psych ward people

 

[jodes2]

Well I wasn't able to execute it yesterday, I had gotten so hyped about it that I hadn't even formulated the plan to the exact moment…and I fucked up, I was out there yesterday morning and there was no one around at all and I could've done it but I didn't bring any of the gear…and there's harbor patrol so I think my survival instinct is manifesting into my paranoia…
And no, apparently drowning is horrible for like 30 seconds to 2 minutes max before you're unconscious and the rest of your body dies…whole process takes like 10 minutes altogether…I'd suffer a limb getting chopped off while awake to be done with this bullshit.
Executed plan is happening tonight…wish me luck!

Good luck

 

[wiltedLotus]

So I did not fail I just decided the place I had chosen was not it. I found a much better and secluded spot where the rocks and trees lead the way where to jump in. So tomorrow

Per ardua ad astra

I love this so much, thank you
The other night when I was out on the pier there was a ring around the moon like the sky had opened up and I could see all the stars if I looked hard enough

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm truly sorry it's come to this for you. I wish you peace if you choose to go through with this.
I don't know if I will be here when you leave but I'm wishing you the best.