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Idontmatter
Just want it all to be over
- Oct 25, 2021
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If I don't postpone again I have less than 2 weeks left. I'm planning on leaving September 10th. I've got everything just about done. Just have to finish writing passwords down so my family can pay bills after I'm gone. I'm getting more and more nervous, not about dying, but about failing. I'm using the sn method. I was trying to find hope for the future but all I can feel is dread. A constant dark cloud over me. I'm tired of delaying the inevitable. I'm just exhausted from the anxiety and sick of the depression. I honestly don't think it will be a surprise to my husband. I think he knows that this is eventually going to happen. I just hope everything goes as planned.