LEAVING TOMORROW TO GO HOME

[StarryStarry]

Have you ever known someone who has the worst luck in the world - who if anything is going to go wrong it will - well that's me. Yup bend over and fuck me ... The bitch manager of the apartment is such a fucking bully it amazes me. She informed me today that they would come tomorrow to fix the floor (this floor is shit - total shit). It will be at least $80 and I don't know how much it will really be until they're done. Well I thought the attorney I worked for (who does landlord/tenant shit) would help me out. What the fuck was I thinking????? So to be honest that is just about all I can take of this shitty world. I'm so done. Nothing in my life is going to change. I can't keep on fighting I am so tired. So I packed the car to leave tomorrow (after I get my check and cash it). and guess what my fucking battery is dead. Yup. Serious - this shit only happens to me. The wind is blowing so hard - I feel my heart pounding in my chest. Too bad I can't just have a heart attack, but that wouldn't be my luck. So my friends I will stay in touch as I travel. Once I get to where my little girl is buried I will make arrangements for myself and then take care of business. I'll continue to communicate until I can't any more.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is such an unfair and cruel world that we live in. I know that it is hard to carry on when you are so tired of everything. I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. I wish you the best.

 

[suicidesheep31]

I am sorry that all these things are not going the easy way.
Do you need financial help from your attorney or other kind?
You do not want to wait until tomorrow to know exactly how much it will cost?
And you can then take a decision.
HUGs!

 

[rationaltake]

It's just one thing after another. I know how that is. Life can be such rubbish. Mine is too.

 

[Foresight]

Why is your landlord making you pay for repairs? You just moved in, why would she charge you to fix someone else's house? I'm confused.

 

[lymestolemylife]

Have you ever known someone who has the worst luck in the world - who if anything is going to go wrong it will - well that's me. Yup bend over and fuck me ... The bitch manager of the apartment is such a fucking bully it amazes me. She informed me today that they would come tomorrow to fix the floor (this floor is shit - total shit). It will be at least $80 and I don't know how much it will really be until they're done. Well I thought the attorney I worked for (who does landlord/tenant shit) would help me out. What the fuck was I thinking????? So to be honest that is just about all I can take of this shitty world. I'm so done. Nothing in my life is going to change. I can't keep on fighting I am so tired. So I packed the car to leave tomorrow (after I get my check and cash it). and guess what my fucking battery is dead. Yup. Serious - this shit only happens to me. The wind is blowing so hard - I feel my heart pounding in my chest. Too bad I can't just have a heart attack, but that wouldn't be my luck. So my friends I will stay in touch as I travel. Once I get to where my little girl is buried I will make arrangements for myself and then take care of business. I'll continue to communicate until I can't any more.

Omg that's me. I'm convinced i'm cursed. Born hearing to 2 deaf adults. Grew up extremely poor. Developed an eating disorder. cured by 19 married an Alcoholic who beat me. Been sick all my life always tired something was just always wrong Chronic Fatigue and Fibro symptoms for years. Had to strip to get away from him. Stopped stripping got a good job as a wine sales rep and married the love of my life. 2nd daughter was born with severe birth defects and was medically fragile. After years in and out of the hospital with myself sick as a dog with Lyme Disease, she died at 6. Got even sicker. Started having seizures and convulsions and horrible pain for 6 years to now. Other daughter 13 says shes transgender cut her hair short and its breaking my heart. Have severe pain and can't get appropriate medication up to 1k a month just managing my pain which is unsustainable. Going to have to leave this place so I don't ruin my husbands finances. He makes a good living and he's been thru enough being married to a hex'd cursed person. I wake up every morning in excruciating pain, I got long covid on top of the chronic pain, and now am getting reoccuring kidney infections. Have a chronic tapeworm infection that i cannot get rid of. Each treatment to try to get rid of it gives me 10 days of hell each time. Have seizures and neuro symptoms most likely because of eggs on my brain. How on Earth did I get a tapeworm infection I never ate pork or sushi. Been close to death many times the last few years and God won't have mercy on me to just let me die. the only thing I want is to just fucking die.

 

[StarryStarry]

Omg that's me. I'm convinced i'm cursed. Born hearing to 2 deaf adults. Grew up extremely poor. Developed an eating disorder. cured by 19 married an Alcoholic who beat me. Been sick all my life always tired something was just always wrong Chronic Fatigue and Fibro symptoms for years. Had to strip to get away from him. Stopped stripping got a good job as a wine sales rep and married the love of my life. 2nd daughter was born with severe birth defects and was medically fragile. After years in and out of the hospital with myself sick as a dog with Lyme Disease, she died at 6. Got even sicker. Started having seizures and convulsions and horrible pain for 6 years to now. Other daughter 13 says shes transgender cut her hair short and its breaking my heart. Have severe pain and can't get appropriate medication up to 1k a month just managing my pain which is unsustainable. Going to have to leave this place so I don't ruin my husbands finances. He makes a good living and he's been thru enough being married to a hex'd cursed person. I wake up every morning in excruciating pain, I got long covid on top of the chronic pain, and now am getting reoccuring kidney infections. Have a chronic tapeworm infection that i cannot get rid of. Each treatment to try to get rid of it gives me 10 days of hell each time. Have seizures and neuro symptoms most likely because of eggs on my brain. How on Earth did I get a tapeworm infection I never ate pork or sushi. Been close to death many times the last few years and God won't have mercy on me to just let me die. the only thing I want is to just fucking die.

I feel like a total asshole feeling sorry for myself. I am so overwhelmed with your story. You are one tough cookie.

 

[lymestolemylife]

I feel like a total asshole feeling sorry for myself. I am so overwhelmed with your story. You are one tough cookie.

Don't! We all have our own levels and what we can deal with. Pain is pain. Shit is shit. I can't handle this level of shit any longer.

 

[LittleLonerLoser]

I know you feel like everything horrible happens to you, but that's simply not the case. The more you tell yourself you're the unluckiest guy and you have it the worst, the more miserable you'll be. I can tell that your life is tough, but so what? You've dealt with so much stuff, and life may eventually come around for the better. Just you wait and see.

 

[bigdog]

Omg that's me. I'm convinced i'm cursed. Born hearing to 2 deaf adults. Grew up extremely poor. Developed an eating disorder. cured by 19 married an Alcoholic who beat me. Been sick all my life always tired something was just always wrong Chronic Fatigue and Fibro symptoms for years. Had to strip to get away from him. Stopped stripping got a good job as a wine sales rep and married the love of my life. 2nd daughter was born with severe birth defects and was medically fragile. After years in and out of the hospital with myself sick as a dog with Lyme Disease, she died at 6. Got even sicker. Started having seizures and convulsions and horrible pain for 6 years to now. Other daughter 13 says shes transgender cut her hair short and its breaking my heart. Have severe pain and can't get appropriate medication up to 1k a month just managing my pain which is unsustainable. Going to have to leave this place so I don't ruin my husbands finances. He makes a good living and he's been thru enough being married to a hex'd cursed person. I wake up every morning in excruciating pain, I got long covid on top of the chronic pain, and now am getting reoccuring kidney infections. Have a chronic tapeworm infection that i cannot get rid of. Each treatment to try to get rid of it gives me 10 days of hell each time. Have seizures and neuro symptoms most likely because of eggs on my brain. How on Earth did I get a tapeworm infection I never ate pork or sushi. Been close to death many times the last few years and God won't have mercy on me to just let me die. the only thing I want is to just fucking die.

Have you tried good multi vitamin solution?
I had problems with my health all childhood but than I started taking Animal Pak from Universal Nutrition and all infections suddenly ended. And by the way you should definitely get rid of tapeworm. There are a lot of good medication if I remember the name I will edit. But basically after 3 days they are out.

 

[FuneralCry]

By the way this is an old thread and the OP isn't even on the site anymore. Do people even check the dates on threads here? And there probably isn't much point to asking people questions who haven't posted on here since last year.

 

[Valky]

By the way this is an old thread and the OP isn't even on the site anymore. Do people even check the dates on threads here?

Wish it was common sense

 

[Source Energy]

By the way this is an old thread and the OP isn't even on the site anymore. Do people even check the dates on threads here? And there probably isn't much point to asking people questions who haven't posted on here since last year.

No, you just see a thread and if you feel responding, you do. I don't check every thread's date. We shouldn't feel judged because we omitted to see it is an old thread. What was the harm? Op is not here anymore they won't respond, but others will. Was it helpful or constructive to malke that remark?

 

[FuneralCry]

No, you just see a thread and if you feel responding, you do. I don't check every thread's date. We shouldn't feel judged because we omitted to see it is an old thread. What was the harm? Op is not here anymore they won't respond, but others will. Was it helpful or constructive to malke that remark?

I made the reply because I think that people are mistaking this thread for being a new one and they think that the OP is still here on the site, it was just to make them aware. If people want to spend time writing kind words to people then they might as well do it to people who are currently on the site. Do you think that it would be helpful and constructive if the front page of the main forum was filled with years old venting threads with people replying to them like they were just created. Because if the forum was like that then nobody who is on the forum now would get replies to their new threads because their threads would be buried beneath all the old threads. However if an old thread is a discussion question or a useful method resource then I can understand why someone would want to bump that.