Leaving tomorrow night

[Sunbeam87!]

Hello, everyone

I am CTB tomorrow night (hopefully). I intend to overdose on propranolol, I have been hoarding it. I considered SN, but many people have reported painful experiences. I think I will pass out from the propranolol before my heart stops and I have seizures. I am also going to down a whole lot of Trazodone (after taking anti-emetics, of course) and a huge amount of other psychiatric medications.

I hope this will all be over soon.

Thanks, everyone.

Edit: Some have told me that propranolol can be an unreliable choice for suicide. I have SN, too, but I am too scared to use it, because of the potential suffering involved.

Perhaps I can take both? Please could someone recommend a "recipe" or guide for death? Thank you!

 

[justwanasleep]

I've overdosed on propranolol before plus quetiapine and the last time I survived after being found around 12 hours later. I was in intensive care for a few days then back to normal. Be careful and best of luck.

 

[Minibosterita]

Hope you find peace

 

[Enemy of Evolution]

Please don't do at home. Someone will find you in few hours.

My plan- walk in a dense forest for one day then just drinking my SN there at midnight. It's impossible for someone to find you.

 

[Sunbeam87!]

I've overdosed on propranolol before plus quetiapine and the last time I survived after being found around 12 hours later. I was in intensive care for a few days then back to normal. Be careful and best of luck.

Hmm. This is disappointing to read. How much did you take?

Please don't do at home. Someone will find you in few hours.

My plan- walk in a dense forest for one day then just drinking my SN there at midnight. It's impossible for someone to find you.

Yes, I may walk somewhere and find a secluded place to die. I will need at least 12 hours.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least to me, the SN method doesn't sound that horrible. Any kind of unpleasant dying process would be nowhere near as awful to me as the suffering that this existence continues to bring. But anyway, I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find the freedom that you wish for.

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

Stan's Guide to SN (a "suicide recipe")

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[justwanasleep]

I didn't count how much it wasn't planned, I'd just had a really bad day and did it. I can take around 10 or more pills at once and I was on a mad frenzy taking as many as I could stomach before I knocked out.

 

[jessisme]

Hello, everyone

I am CTB tomorrow night (hopefully). I intend to overdose on propranolol, I have been hoarding it. I considered SN, but many people have reported painful experiences. I think I will pass out from the propranolol before my heart stops and I have seizures. I am also going to down a whole lot of Trazodone (after taking anti-emetics, of course) and a huge amount of other psychiatric medications.

I hope this will all be over soon.

Thanks, everyone.

Edit: Some have told me that propranolol can be an unreliable choice for suicide. I have SN, too, but I am too scared to use it, because of the potential suffering involved.

Perhaps I can take both? Please could someone recommend a "recipe" or guide for death? Thank you!

It seems like you shouldn't be planning on leaving tomorrow night if you don't have a detailed, airtight plan nailed down yet. Please reconsider.

 

[Sunbeam87!]

I guess that's true. I really don't want to fuck it up. If I do, I know I will be looked up in an institution because I have had three attempts in the past. The last one should have killed me, but I was "saved" by a dog. I left my house that night, took all my gran's sleeping pills and my psychiatric medications, walked to a different neighbourhood and hid behind a rock and downed all the pills. Apparently I was wondering around in a daze and this dog went crazy. A young couple found me and called the police. I don't remember any of that. I do remember waking up in hospital and crying because I hadn't been successful. Everyone was really, really pissed off with me; the doctors and nurses were dismissive and seemed irritated. I guess I understand that; they work with people who are dying and would give anything to live and there I was, trying to throw my life away.

 

[Sunbeam87!]

Yes, there are some good guides, but they only mention the beta blockers briefly; I don't known how much to take and when.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's impossible for someone to find you.

Maybe unlikely, never impossible. People show up in the strangest places at the most inconvenient times.

Hello, everyone

I am CTB tomorrow night (hopefully). I intend to overdose on propranolol, I have been hoarding it. I considered SN, but many people have reported painful experiences. I think I will pass out from the propranolol before my heart stops and I have seizures. I am also going to down a whole lot of Trazodone (after taking anti-emetics, of course) and a huge amount of other psychiatric medications.

I hope this will all be over soon.

Thanks, everyone.

Edit: Some have told me that propranolol can be an unreliable choice for suicide. I have SN, too, but I am too scared to use it, because of the potential suffering involved.

Perhaps I can take both? Please could someone recommend a "recipe" or guide for death? Thank you!

Good luck to you and may you have a peaceful exit and achieve freedom from your pain if you decide to go through with your plans.

 

[Sittichmutter]

I guess that's true. I really don't want to fuck it up. If I do, I know I will be looked up in an institution because I have had three attempts in the past. The last one should have killed me, but I was "saved" by a dog. I left my house that night, took all my gran's sleeping pills and my psychiatric medications, walked to a different neighbourhood and hid behind a rock and downed all the pills. Apparently I was wondering around in a daze and this dog went crazy. A young couple found me and called the police. I don't remember any of that. I do remember waking up in hospital and crying because I hadn't been successful. Everyone was really, really pissed off with me; the doctors and nurses were dismissive and seemed irritated. I guess I understand that; they work with people who are dying and would give anything to live and there I was, trying to throw my life away.

I am sorry you were treated with judgement after your suicide attempt. These health professionals lack adequate training to deal with mental diseases and human suffering.
You needed help and empathy.
Take Care.
Lots of love to you!