Discussion Last preparations before CTB?

[Chikitawita]

I have written a will and wrote scheduled messages to my family.

Now I constantly get anxiety that I am missing something.

Did I write everything I wanted to? Will my parents be able to access my computer and phone? I want them to as I have documents for them.

Will they be able to follow the instructions and get all my things?

This stress keeps me from just doing it already.

 

[VoidDesirer22]

I envy this. I struggle to care because I know I'll literally be dead.

 

[Chikitawita]

I envy this. I struggle to care because I know I'll literally be dead.

This is a pretty new advancement in my journey. I didn't feel this stuff before.

 

[deathwish38]

I have the same problem. A big reason i want to die is to free people of my burden so the last thing i want is for there to be loose ends or problems caused.

I actually straight out asked my ex wife if there was anything i could do but i think she assumed i was just after attention.

Maybe it's just something that can't be achieved perfectly and you just do what ypu can.

Go peacefully if you do choose to do it mate

 

[Lutembëe]

I did the same thing as you. I wrote all my letters and wrote on paper all my passwords, people to contact to close some accounts, contacts of my employers and so.

 

[healthrecovery]

I have written a will and wrote scheduled messages to my family.

Now I constantly get anxiety that I am missing something.

Did I write everything I wanted to? Will my parents be able to access my computer and phone? I want them to as I have documents for them.

Will they be able to follow the instructions and get all my things?

This stress keeps me from just doing it already.

Don't forget to write down how cute you are

 

[deathwish38]

I did the same thing as you. I wrote all my letters and wrote on paper all my passwords, people to contact to close some accounts, contacts of my employers and so.

Unfortunately my employer is the ambulance service so my colleagues will be among the people who find me. I feel terrible about that.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that must be stressful. I wish you the best with your plans, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[koweday]

A friend of mine ctb two years ago and, before he went, he made playlists on his Spotify as a surprise for all of us. He also made a google drive with thousands of his favorite photos from his life; personal, or memes, or whatever. It was such a kind thing to do for those of us left here, and we all still regularly listen to the playlists and look through the google drive for comfort.

 

[Originaldon]

Unfortunately there is always an element to suicide of it won't matter anymore , it's not for you to worry about.