YandereMikuMistress
you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
- Apr 26, 2023
- 1,416
As much as i try nothing works, now hes mad because like i made a joke and he got all defensive and said he'll leave me and go somewhere else to drink as we were supposed to go to the bar with "a" and his brother and his brothers gf but back to it he tossed my frys on the counter after i thought we where having a good time but as soon as i dish out the same rage bait he serves he looses his shit,,
The joke was that he's "done gay things before" and I giggled because he just showed me a gay meme with two guys touching tips like it was obviously supposed to be a clear joke and he started making fun of my brother L after I made that joke about him,, anyway
we ended up going to the bar still but him and his brother where silently making fun of some gay guy who was at the bar hanging out with a girl they said " you see that its a gay faggot chink" and i scoffed and avory told me to go home "if you find that shit so normal " and i said "its not like hes shoving it down your throat" aka the gay guy isnt doing anything to make it seem like he has to be noticed for being gay and avory made fun of him again to me saying "looks and sounds just like an#### " aka my brothers boyfriend,,
But I stayed and i tried to kill him with kindness and i got us both there best shot but i also told the waitress to go let that guy know that i think he should keep being as he is and stay true to himself aka the guy "a" and his brother where making fun of and i let the bartender know that my partner and his brother and his brothers gf are all homophobic.
I cried in the bathroom at the bar, i remember getting home later to then get yelled at again for idk why i cant remember all to well but i stormed off and took a bag filled with my clothes and walked crying along the road and then i collaped along the road and sobbed and some people walked by until one man sat infront of me and talked to me for awhile then later he offered to walk me back to my apartment, he was really kind, he helped me pick up all the clothes that fell out of my bag when i collapsed on the ground,, i got all dressed up that night for "a" and did pretty makupe and blue eyeshadow in the inner corners of my eyes and had a beautiful flowey blue brown and green patterned dress,
he probably yelled at me about being unable to just stand for homophobia, i did drink allot that night but to be honest ive been drinking allot lately,, and recently ive been blacking out more, because when i got home after that guy simply just was kind enough to listen to my crys i cant remember what i did but i woke up at around 4am and "a" was turned away from me and i was still in my dress and my makupe was a mess but for some resone my glasses where on the shower floor and i had my favorite black cuffs on my wrist that "a" got me a few years back, idk if i layed in the shower in my dress or what but i most likely put these cuffs on, i remember sitting in the dark somewhere but idk where, i suppose it could have been the shower.
When i got up for a bit this morning around 4 after all that stuff and finding my glasses and what not, i changed into a shirt and shorts and i went and cleaned up the kitchen to idk motivate "a" to want to idk be around me and i showered in the dark then had a few sips of water and went back to sleep but i had an awful dream,,every time i dream its never anything nice.
When that kind man sat down and listend to me i told the guy i was hoping "a" would come looking for me,, i wasnt far at all just along the road by the apartment complex we live in..
But i mean when i was walking down the road "a" called me about 18 times and said this on snap chat
"pick up your fucking phone"
and this on text messages
[url=https://postimg.cc/7CHFTwW2]
[/URL]
"Where tf are you going"
"Answer your fucking phone "
"Where are you"
"Jesus fucking Christ"
"I'm getting fucking sick and tired of this shit "
For some resone every time I try to just upload a photo recently it hasn't been working..
The joke was that he's "done gay things before" and I giggled because he just showed me a gay meme with two guys touching tips like it was obviously supposed to be a clear joke and he started making fun of my brother L after I made that joke about him,, anyway
we ended up going to the bar still but him and his brother where silently making fun of some gay guy who was at the bar hanging out with a girl they said " you see that its a gay faggot chink" and i scoffed and avory told me to go home "if you find that shit so normal " and i said "its not like hes shoving it down your throat" aka the gay guy isnt doing anything to make it seem like he has to be noticed for being gay and avory made fun of him again to me saying "looks and sounds just like an#### " aka my brothers boyfriend,,
But I stayed and i tried to kill him with kindness and i got us both there best shot but i also told the waitress to go let that guy know that i think he should keep being as he is and stay true to himself aka the guy "a" and his brother where making fun of and i let the bartender know that my partner and his brother and his brothers gf are all homophobic.
I cried in the bathroom at the bar, i remember getting home later to then get yelled at again for idk why i cant remember all to well but i stormed off and took a bag filled with my clothes and walked crying along the road and then i collaped along the road and sobbed and some people walked by until one man sat infront of me and talked to me for awhile then later he offered to walk me back to my apartment, he was really kind, he helped me pick up all the clothes that fell out of my bag when i collapsed on the ground,, i got all dressed up that night for "a" and did pretty makupe and blue eyeshadow in the inner corners of my eyes and had a beautiful flowey blue brown and green patterned dress,
he probably yelled at me about being unable to just stand for homophobia, i did drink allot that night but to be honest ive been drinking allot lately,, and recently ive been blacking out more, because when i got home after that guy simply just was kind enough to listen to my crys i cant remember what i did but i woke up at around 4am and "a" was turned away from me and i was still in my dress and my makupe was a mess but for some resone my glasses where on the shower floor and i had my favorite black cuffs on my wrist that "a" got me a few years back, idk if i layed in the shower in my dress or what but i most likely put these cuffs on, i remember sitting in the dark somewhere but idk where, i suppose it could have been the shower.
When i got up for a bit this morning around 4 after all that stuff and finding my glasses and what not, i changed into a shirt and shorts and i went and cleaned up the kitchen to idk motivate "a" to want to idk be around me and i showered in the dark then had a few sips of water and went back to sleep but i had an awful dream,,every time i dream its never anything nice.
When that kind man sat down and listend to me i told the guy i was hoping "a" would come looking for me,, i wasnt far at all just along the road by the apartment complex we live in..
But i mean when i was walking down the road "a" called me about 18 times and said this on snap chat
"pick up your fucking phone"
and this on text messages
[url=https://postimg.cc/7CHFTwW2]
[/URL]"Where tf are you going"
"Answer your fucking phone "
"Where are you"
"Jesus fucking Christ"
"I'm getting fucking sick and tired of this shit "
For some resone every time I try to just upload a photo recently it hasn't been working..
