its sad and scary that this christmas is my last but there is no going back the pain will end soon
I feel the same way L. I still have'nt settled on a method, but the only time I feel at peace is when asleep.
I've been in a deep depression for 9 months now.
I've been in a deep depression for 9 months now.
Be careful and thoughtful. I hope you find peace within youself before or at the moment of your eventual end 
peepo
Member
- Nov 11, 2021
- 75
I haven't done much research, but if or when I do it, it will be a low-impact method - such as the night-night method, hanging or an inert gas. If you are interested in any of those methods, you are welcome to search for them here on this forum.
Thanks Jul. Where do you find methods on this site?
I've thought CO gas would be a good way. If all goes well, you just pass out and never wake up. Downside, if you fail, your left a vegetable!
I've thought CO gas would be a good way. If all goes well, you just pass out and never wake up. Downside, if you fail, your left a vegetable!
If you don't have acces to the search feature yet - which requires a specific amount of posts - you can go to Google, for example, and type something like the search term below, into the search field. Just replace "WORD" with what you are looking for.
site:https://sanctioned-suicide.net WORD
I'm an older guy. Back in the 70s, a friend turned his car on in a closed garage and sat back with a doobie and a beer. But that was the 70s. Now almost all vehicles have a catylitic converter, which greatly reduces the CO from the tailpipe.
OK, thanks Jul.
OK, thanks Jul.
I'm wondering if this will be my last too. I haven't made plans or anything, but over the past month or two I've realized that the only reason I'm still alive is so I don't hurt people I care about if I were to CTB. Not sure how long that will keep me holding on. I guess we'll see.
YMN
even a procrastinator in suicide
- Nov 14, 2021
- 60
With how things are going, this Christmas may be my last too. It's a weird feeling, knowing that this is the last Christmas/New Year's I'll ever have. But I can't stand the thought of being alive for another year.
NormaJeane
Member
- Mar 24, 2021
- 648
Many of us want this Christmas to be our last. I did not even want to live though the Christmas of 2021.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 44,427
I wish this was my last christmas, but suicide is very difficult. I lack the option of a peaceful and reliable exit and there is the fear of failure. More than anything I wish it was easier to leave this world. I do hope I fall asleep and never wake again so I do not have to live until next christmas. I hope you find freedom from all pain.
rottenteeth
Member
- Dec 20, 2021
- 16
Sorry to here that. Possibly same for me. After almost 15 years of suffering I am not going to do it anymore. So sick of trying to get better and not. I want a miracle for me and everyone here for our lives to turn around and become good. It hurts seeing happy people, successful and happy hurts even worse.
