last christmas alive

[lonerclown666]

its sad and scary that this christmas is my last but there is no going back the pain will end soon

 

[Onkyo74893]

I feel the same way L. I still have'nt settled on a method, but the only time I feel at peace is when asleep.
I've been in a deep depression for 9 months now.

 

[Julgran]

Be careful and thoughtful. I hope you find peace within youself before or at the moment of your eventual end

 

[Onkyo74893]

I have'nt been on this site very long Julgran. What method would you choose?

 

[peepo]

The most painful Christmas.

 

[Julgran]

I have'nt been on this site very long Julgran. What method would you choose?

I haven't done much research, but if or when I do it, it will be a low-impact method - such as the night-night method, hanging or an inert gas. If you are interested in any of those methods, you are welcome to search for them here on this forum.

 

[Onkyo74893]

Thanks Jul. Where do you find methods on this site?
I've thought CO gas would be a good way. If all goes well, you just pass out and never wake up. Downside, if you fail, your left a vegetable!

 

[Julgran]

Thanks Jul. Where do you find methods on this site?
I've thought CO gas would be a good way. If all goes well, you just pass out and never wake up. Downside, if you fail, your left a vegetable!

If you don't have acces to the search feature yet - which requires a specific amount of posts - you can go to Google, for example, and type something like the search term below, into the search field. Just replace "WORD" with what you are looking for.

site:https://sanctioned-suicide.net WORD

 

[Onkyo74893]

I'm an older guy. Back in the 70s, a friend turned his car on in a closed garage and sat back with a doobie and a beer. But that was the 70s. Now almost all vehicles have a catylitic converter, which greatly reduces the CO from the tailpipe.
OK, thanks Jul.

 

[lonerclown666]

I have'nt been on this site very long Julgran. What method would you choose?

gunshot

 

[JeffroCakes]

I'm wondering if this will be my last too. I haven't made plans or anything, but over the past month or two I've realized that the only reason I'm still alive is so I don't hurt people I care about if I were to CTB. Not sure how long that will keep me holding on. I guess we'll see.

 

[YMN]

With how things are going, this Christmas may be my last too. It's a weird feeling, knowing that this is the last Christmas/New Year's I'll ever have. But I can't stand the thought of being alive for another year.

 

[NormaJeane]

Many of us want this Christmas to be our last. I did not even want to live though the Christmas of 2021.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish this was my last christmas, but suicide is very difficult. I lack the option of a peaceful and reliable exit and there is the fear of failure. More than anything I wish it was easier to leave this world. I do hope I fall asleep and never wake again so I do not have to live until next christmas. I hope you find freedom from all pain.

 

[rottenteeth]

Sorry to here that. Possibly same for me. After almost 15 years of suffering I am not going to do it anymore. So sick of trying to get better and not. I want a miracle for me and everyone here for our lives to turn around and become good. It hurts seeing happy people, successful and happy hurts even worse.