Discussion Killing yourself to avoid the future.

[Madanascar]

Old age and what climate change has in store for humanity. I don't plan on being around to see it

 

[tiredone]

I would like to be gone already, but cant ctb with kids around. Would love to have an accident or my heart would stop in sleep.

 

[Challu]

Fair take. I just want to get as close to God as I can. Even if I get punished for suicide, i feel like it's better to be experiencing some kind of judgement that actually bears some reasoning and weight to my existence.

If i stay here, I'll just experience dissatisfaction, cope and boredom.

 

[Illidan77]

I can relate so much with this. I have no skills nor experiences to be employed, spent most of my life alone.
and i'm scare of dementia, lung cancer, prostate/bladder related illness.
especially not having to worry anymore, the desperation period. i do hope the same state when it''' come to the moment.
i think mostly is because of the tiredness so i think it's more about the future.

 

[TapeMachine]

Yep, I'm right there with you, Forever Sleep.
My future looks grim from where I'm sitting. I have no savings, no career, zero desire to work my life away. I do not have children, and I'm not close with many of my living family members- no close (local) friends either, not any longer.

I will absolutely ctb to spare myself from my future. For now, I have to keep living for my Dad though. (I think I've seen you mention a similar sentiment before, about your dad?) We just lost one of my brothers recently. I cannot further break my Dad's heart, not now, not so soon after my brother's death. :(

The thing is, even though I wasn't super close to the deceased brother, he was the only one of my brothers who regularly contacted me. The only one. Losing him, and recently losing a very close friend on here, has me feeling more alienated than usual. I think about both of them often...

Yet I have to keep going, just a little longer..

 

[SpiderLink]

past, present, future... I wanna escape it all.

^

 

[Anon1337]

My life will be much worse in the future. I will never live a good life so CTB will prevent decades of misery.

 

[User00]

I am afraid of the future. I dont really got much of one. And in the future, getting old, as a woman, I would be devalued, unwanted cause I am no longer young and beautiful, which i am not even beautiful in appearance, i look like a 3 and my body is a -10, while also having health issues, and aging is the worst and not only that I have no value as a human being or any skills or talent what so ever which adds to list of reasons I dont want to be here. Love would be hard to find when Im older, even though I am not looking for any love at the moment, thats the last thing i want right now, I dont know how I could be independant, i dont want to be alone, I am not doing well physically I am overweight, and no one likes fat people at all, and people like me are put to shame and looked down upon, thinking about how i am fat alone, makes me want to ctb, while also having chronic lower back pain that im afraid could get worse.

 

[StillBreathing]

I am afraid of the future. I dont really got much of one. And in the future, getting old, as a woman, I would be devalued, unwanted cause I am no longer young and beautiful, which i am not even beautiful in appearance, i look like a 3 and my body is a -10, while also having health issues, and aging is the worst and not only that I have no value as a human being or any skills or talent what so ever which adds to list of reasons I dont want to be here. Love would be hard to find when Im older, even though I am not looking for any love at the moment, thats the last thing i want right now, I dont know how I could be independant, i dont want to be alone, I am not doing well physically I am overweight, and no one likes fat people at all, and people like me are put to shame and looked down upon, thinking about how i am fat alone, makes me want to ctb, while also having chronic lower back pain that im afraid could get worse.

This is something you can change. Being overweight is caused by eating a surplus of calories which your body don't know what do with except storing it as fat. Start counting calories (weigh your food and track the calories using MyFitnessPal). It is very easy to drop weight once your body adapts to eating less and more healthy saturating food.