kept alive by daydreams

[Arrow]

At times when I feel like I can resign myself to giving up, caving and just buying the things i would need to get out of here, something clicks in my mind and I remember all of the things that I wanted to be.

I remember the dreams I had, and still have, of actually making something of myself and being who I want to be. I get dragged back into the daydreams of having what I wanted out of life. And i guess since I'm a bit on the young side it still feels like those things could happen/i could escape my current situation, even if i know it won't happen. And if they did happen, would I even be able to make it work? Would I even be happy? Knowing myself, the answers probably aren't gonna be what I want them to be.

I want there to be something a bit more that can keep me alive than just a daydream about a better place, because I don't think dreams alone will do much. I guess I just wish things were different. For now I will just struggle on and hope a cloud comes to block this blistering sun.

 

[Toxic Positivity]

You have a way with words. Thank you for your post, and I hope you wake up from one of these daydreams only to find it becoming real.