Hello
I have never written a post like this so i don't really know how it'll turn out but here we go.
I have wanted to die since around a decade and lived a life so that I'd not be missed. My life wasn't really bad but somewhere along the way I decided not to live. Though shitty things happen I have gotten used to dealing with it.
No one really is dependent on me and I doubt a lot of people will notice if I stopped existing. Except for some close family members but I never got a choice in that. I think everyone knows at this point that I've given up on life and I hope that anyone who cares will understand. Not that I like people in general but I'd like if no one noticed that I'm gone.
Despite wanting to die I wouldn't have decided to make any active effort if I was sure my life was good. The way things are currently I'm sure it will be a sad and miserable life. It would have been better if I was a neet but ctb would've been harder while not being independent. Anyways I'm making a futile last ditch effort to see if I can improve my life before leaving it behind. Maybe I'll decide to see how a few more years go if things go right this time. Maybe I'll finally be… happy? It seems a very big word so I'll use bearable instead.
Anyways I am satisfied the way I lived and I will have no regrets since I'll soon have exhausted all methods which would have made me continue living. I have always been an atheist but recently started praying to idk who that my misery comes to an end soon.
Thanks for reading.
I have never written a post like this so i don't really know how it'll turn out but here we go.
I have wanted to die since around a decade and lived a life so that I'd not be missed. My life wasn't really bad but somewhere along the way I decided not to live. Though shitty things happen I have gotten used to dealing with it.
No one really is dependent on me and I doubt a lot of people will notice if I stopped existing. Except for some close family members but I never got a choice in that. I think everyone knows at this point that I've given up on life and I hope that anyone who cares will understand. Not that I like people in general but I'd like if no one noticed that I'm gone.
Despite wanting to die I wouldn't have decided to make any active effort if I was sure my life was good. The way things are currently I'm sure it will be a sad and miserable life. It would have been better if I was a neet but ctb would've been harder while not being independent. Anyways I'm making a futile last ditch effort to see if I can improve my life before leaving it behind. Maybe I'll decide to see how a few more years go if things go right this time. Maybe I'll finally be… happy? It seems a very big word so I'll use bearable instead.
Anyways I am satisfied the way I lived and I will have no regrets since I'll soon have exhausted all methods which would have made me continue living. I have always been an atheist but recently started praying to idk who that my misery comes to an end soon.
Thanks for reading.
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