Just want to be in the hospital for a little bit

[ifeelsobad]

I've said this before but I am not yet 100 percent sure I want to die yet but I'd like to go to the hospital for a break from life. I'm on 4th day of not taking my medication which I was hoping would make me have a seizure and go to the hospital but all its doing is making Me feel weird and my head hurt so I don't know if I want to keep doing it. I don't know what to do but I need a break so bad(not just 1 or 2 days off of work but like a week or 2) I feel depressed and I have ptsd and I just feel horrible but not ready to just kill myself yet


EDIT: sorry I made this to confusing I want to go to a medical hospital only not a psych hospital. I hate the psych hospital and would never ever want to go there again. The medical one I was at was nice though. I stopped taking epilepsy medicine because of this but nothing has happened. I was hoping seizures would get me there as it almost did before and I like the medical one

 

[sadjenny]

The psych ward is a good place to get a "break". That was one of my thoughts the last time I was there, that I was on a sort of weird tremendously boring vacation. It's calming to have everything decided for you, or least it can be for me. Your meals are scheduled, you stand in line for meds, you play UNO (a card game), and attend therapy. Sometimes my hospital took us out back to play basketball or walk a track.

I don't know how things are overseas, I am from the USA. But I imagine it's much the same. If you need it, it's there. You deserve a rest, friend.

 

[6MillionWaystoDie]

When you say hospital do you mean any stay. Does it matter which unit?

Not sure where you are at but in the US most mental hospitals have a policy where you can self sign in and out for a 48-72hour period. Why put yourself through the torture of medicine detox only to start retaking the medicine when you are admitted? Just ask for the self admitted hold. You can also self sign out once ready but usually they won't allow it until you've at least talked to someone within the 48-72 hr period.

Not being ready to kill yourself will actually be a plus for ensuring they don't try to hold you against your will.

 

[Shadowlord900]

Have you been to a psych ward before? If not I must warn you, each psych ward vastly differs resulting in different experiences for people. But sadly more often than not, people's experiences with psych wards turn out to be pretty terrible. I think the good psych wards are few and far between.

If you have the money, I think it would be better to go on a holiday, even if it just by your own.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Have you been to one before?

It's not advised to suddenly quit medication you're been regularly taking. Little wonder that's making you feel bad, or worse. I would advise you to take them as prescribed for now.

 

[ifeelsobad]

The psych ward is a good place to get a "break". That was one of my thoughts the last time I was there, that I was on a sort of weird tremendously boring vacation. It's calming to have everything decided for you, or least it can be for me. Your meals are scheduled, you stand in line for meds, you play UNO (a card game), and attend therapy. Sometimes my hospital took us out back to play basketball or walk a track.

I don't know how things are overseas, I am from the USA. But I imagine it's much the same. If you need it, it's there. You deserve a rest, friend.

I don't want to go to the psych ward. I hate it there and never want to go back. I want to go to a medical hospital the last time I was there they were so nice and I didn't feel like a prisoner. That's why I stopped my epilepsy medicine I was hoping to get sick with seizures bad enough to get in to the hospital but I haven't had any yet so I'm not sure why because it's already my 4th day

Have you been to a psych ward before? If not I must warn you, each psych ward vastly differs resulting in different experiences for people. But sadly more often than not, people's experiences with psych wards turn out to be pretty terrible. I think the good psych wards are few and far between.

If you have the money, I think it would be better to go on a holiday, even if it just by your own.

Yes I didn't explain this good I think I made my post to confusing. I meant I want to go to a medical hospital definable not a mental one I hate those and never want to go back. The medical one was nice though

 

[Monopoly1]

I also. Unsure of the best way to do it, was tinking maybe to take some things that would make me pass out for a while, but not sure what drugs would do that that are readily available. Any suggestions?

 

[Shadowlord900]

I don't want to go to the psych ward. I hate it there and never want to go back. I want to go to a medical hospital the last time I was there they were so nice and I didn't feel like a prisoner. That's why I stopped my epilepsy medicine I was hoping to get sick with seizures bad enough to get in to the hospital but I haven't had any yet so I'm not sure why because it's already my 4th day

Yes I didn't explain this good I think I made my post to confusing. I meant I want to go to a medical hospital definable not a mental one I hate those and never want to go back. The medical one was nice though

I think it'll be pretty difficult to injure yourself badly enough (and you wouldn't want to overdo that part and suffer any permanent injuries) to get admitted into hospital and then come up with a scenario that doesn't make it look like you did it on purpose to avoid ending up in the psych ward unit.

 

[sadjenny]

I don't want to go to the psych ward. I hate it there and never want to go back. I want to go to a medical hospital the last time I was there they were so nice and I didn't feel like a prisoner.

Understood friend. I'm sorry I got that wrong!

 

[whywere]

The last one that I was in had great food and awesome nurses! Quick tale, I was in a car crash, car crash not my fault, and I had been on oxycodone before going in the hospital. I was not allowed to bring it with me, and one night around 3:30am I could not sleep because of the pain. I went out and sat in the hall to get off my back and bang there was a nurse right there. She asked me why I was up, and I told her everything, about the pain and having no pain meds. She disappeared and came back in a few minutes with a small paper cup with a pill in it. I asked her what the pill was, and she said oxycodone and to take it. all the times before if I even mentioned opioids I got yelled at, BUT she was different and so nice!

About a half hour later she came back and asked how I was doing, and I told her that the pain level was still high. She disappeared again and this time there was a doctor with her, and we talked, and I was put on a permanent dosage of oxycodone while I was there and it was because of her, so nice! The pain went way down and I could get some sleep.

With all of that said, I hope that a quick stay would help you. It is a quiet time to relax, reflect.

Best to you filled with love and hugs always.

Walter

 

[sadjenny]

The last one that I was in had great food and awesome nurses! Quick tale, I was in a car crash, car crash not my fault, and I had been on oxycodone before going in the hospital. I was not allowed to bring it with me, and one night around 3:30am I could not sleep because of the pain. I went out and sat in the hall to get off my back and bang there was a nurse right there. She asked me why I was up, and I told her everything, about the pain and having no pain meds. She disappeared and came back in a few minutes with a small paper cup with a pill in it. I asked her what the pill was, and she said oxycodone and to take it. all the times before if I even mentioned opioids I got yelled at, BUT she was different and so nice!

About a half hour later she came back and asked how I was doing, and I told her that the pain level was still high. She disappeared again and this time there was a doctor with her, and we talked, and I was put on a permanent dosage of oxycodone while I was there and it was because of her, so nice! The pain went way down adn I could get some sleep.

With all of that said, I hope that a quick stay would help you. It is a quiet time to relax, reflect.

Best to you filled with love and hugs always.

Walter

Oh this actually reminded me of something similar... I had covid last fall and was in awful condition. My O2 was in the shitter, feverish, couldn't breathe, etc. So I drive myself to the hospital.

I ended up not being sick enough to get admitted, they would later discharge me with steroids and I recovered. But while I was there in my ER room I had the kindest nurse. It was maybe 2am, and I'm miserable, and she comes in with a gentle smile and a warm blanket.

I sit up to thank her and take the blanket from her arms, but she gently pushes me down and INSISTS on covering me herself. She tucks the blanket around my body, adjusts my pillow, and checked my IV.

That was the first time anyone had physically touched me in 3+ years. I felt so tremendously cared for. I wished I could stay.

Sorry, I don't mean to derail the thread. I'm just crying a little now with my happy memory. Thank you Walter.

 

[ifeelsobad]

I think it'll be pretty difficult to injure yourself badly enough (and you wouldn't want to overdo that part and suffer any permanent injuries) to get admitted into hospital and then come up with a scenario that doesn't make it look like you did it on purpose to avoid ending up in the psych ward unit.

Yeah thats why I wanted to have a seizure badly because it'll knock me out so I won't feel it. I don't want to be in pain but I'll get to be in the hospital. Seizures don't hurt me I just wake up not knowing what happened. Last time I was in an ER it was for something actually really painful so I don't want to do that again I just want to be knocked out I guess. Is there a way to do that?

 

[dra1ncoreslwt]

I've said this before but I am not yet 100 percent sure I want to die yet but I'd like to go to the hospital for a break from life. I'm on 4th day of not taking my medication which I was hoping would make me have a seizure and go to the hospital but all its doing is making Me feel weird and my head hurt so I don't know if I want to keep doing it. I don't know what to do but I need a break so bad(not just 1 or 2 days off of work but like a week or 2) I feel depressed and I have ptsd and I just feel horrible but not ready to just kill myself yet


EDIT: sorry I made this to confusing I want to go to a medical hospital only not a psych hospital. I hate the psych hospital and would never ever want to go there again. The medical one I was at was nice though. I stopped taking epilepsy medicine because of this but nothing has happened. I was hoping seizures would get me there as it almost did before and I like the medical one

this is so relatable. I kind of want to injure myself badly because I don't want to die yet, but it feels like everything in my life has been pushing me towards the direction of deciding to ctb. the medical hospital can sound so comforting and I kinda wanna end up there to be cared for, even if injured idrc, the attention and idk. giving those who "care" a little bit of a scare because they don't realize how bad I'm doing and I can't reach out for help with words because I've done it before and it just doesn't work, nothing changes. maybe to see if they'll take me seriously now… while striving away from the issues during an injury recovery.

 

[ifeelsobad]

this is so relatable. I kind of want to injure myself badly because I don't want to die yet, but it feels like everything in my life has been pushing me towards the direction of deciding to ctb. the medical hospital can sound so comforting and I kinda wanna end up there to be cared for, even if injured idrc, the attention and idk. giving those who "care" a little bit of a scare because they don't realize how bad I'm doing and I can't reach out for help with words because I've done it before and it just doesn't work, nothing changes. maybe to see if they'll take me seriously now… while striving away from the issues during an injury recovery.

Is it ok if I message you? Maybe we can talk because this is exactly how I feel and I've never met anyone else who feels this way.

 

[Sad_Squirrel]

I know the feeling. I often kinda wish I'd be hit by a bus or something, something to get me totally unable to care fofr any of my responsibilities for a few weeks. Enough time to rest and think about how to deal with things and to have a "real" reason to get the bar sort of re-adjusted. And to just rest for a while without any guilt about anything... This is actually a thought experiment I regularlyish use to figure out whether I'm actually suicidal or just really overwhelmed and stretched thin.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's not advised to suddenly quit medication you're been regularly taken. Little wonder that's making you feel bad, or worse. I would advise you to take them as prescribed for now.

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[ifeelsobad]

Have you been to one before?

It's not advised to suddenly quit medication you're been regularly taking. Little wonder that's making you feel bad, or worse. I would advise you to take them as prescribed for now.

I know it's medication for epilepsy and the reason I want to have not take the medication is to have seizures so I can get to go to a hospital for 2 reasons.

1. I'm stressed out and just want to stay in bed and relax all day

2. I'm really really nervous and scared about something I have to do and I want to get into the hospital right before this thing happens so I don't have to deal with it

 

[Aucklanddeathwish]

It could take weeks or months being off the epilepsy meds before you have a seizure. It's not good to suddenly go off any med, cos u can have weird symptoms (like the headache). Plus when/if u DO have a seizure, you could be in a dangerous situation/put others in danger, if it happens at the wrong time and place. Also when/if u do go back on the meds, it could take a while to get them back to working levels in your system. It's just complicated and a bad idea to mess with ur meds

 

[coldblood]

infection of a wound is the easiest. Or dehydration.

Or look up "illness fakers", who live in hospitals almost perpetually. Usually they suffer from Munchausens so if you find their methods I'm sure you'll find a way like they do of being admitted and staying admitted for a little bit.