Something that happened to me frequently thoughout a large part of my life was that some people compared me to other people or insinuated things like you can never do this or you're not that good, things about my body, they planted many insecurities in me in different ways I don't know how explaining it sometimes with a simple look accompained by a speech that was not good but could not be classified as bad either, it took me too long to realize this.
I even feel that some people would be happy if I ctb.
I have made mistakes in my life, i am very sorry for that and i have learned from them but seriously right now I am tired, I think angry and sad. I believe in god but i really don't think there's any point in living.
I still don't feel ready to share much about myself but my desire for ctb is not only for this.
Hi sweet
@i_tried_it
I'm sorry you are suffering so much, please know that we are here and we will never judge you ❤
As you say at the very end of your message, you don't feel ready to share more about yourself yet, I admit that therefore, it's a bit complicated to fully understand what happened to you and I'm sorry for that ❤
When you describe that people are happy with the hurt you felt, or that they were saying bad things to you, I assume you are describing times in your life when you experienced harassment? Mockery? Rejection?
When you talk about fragility, even if it's vague, are you implying that you were not supported enough? Loved? That maybe today you feel more emotional, sensitive?
If not, I'm sorry, I don't want to draw a wrong profile of you. But if we assume that it's true and that it really happened, I understand
Bullying is a scourge, the mockery and lack of support completely undermines a person and over time people who are victims lose confidence in themselves, no longer believe or trust others, become isolated, anxious and harsh on themselves
As you describe, you may feel that our lives become so insignificant to others that we would be willing to hurt ourselves
Don't hurt yourself, don't blame yourself, you are suffering and it's not your fault ❤
Today you need to be able to heal these wounds, to talk about them, to realise that what you have experienced is a strength that others don't have, to trust yourself and others ❤
It's not easy I know, I know that today you are tired, that you have no strength left ❤
That's why, obviously do it at your own pace, but don't take a harsh attitude with you because I assure you that you don't deserve it
You have courage, you've endured all this for a long time now and I thank you for trusting us and talking to us about it today ❤
Take some time for yourself, you deserve it ❤
Take care of yourself and keep us posted ❤
Love ❤
try not to let other people affect you 
