Honestly, I'm just feeling really pathetic right now. Most days after work, I just lay down and sleep to avoid the panic attacks that have become way too frequent. I feel like a loser for not being able to deal with it all properly. For not just being strong enough. And with that comes the terrible sleep schedule I have now. Awesome.
Last Tuesday, my therapist gave me a benzodiazepine to use only when I have bad panic attacks. Of those 20 pills she prescribed me, I have used 7 already in the last four days.
I'm aware that you're likely to get addicted to benzos, but they genuinely helped me switch my brain off in the beginning, away from the serious doubts and terrible thoughts I get whenever a panic attack strikes once more.
But now, I already feel like with every new pill I take to combat the bad feelings when they arise anew, the effect wanes rather quickly again. I didn't expect it to happen this quick… I was genuinely at peace with myself for like a day or two.
Last Tuesday, my therapist gave me a benzodiazepine to use only when I have bad panic attacks. Of those 20 pills she prescribed me, I have used 7 already in the last four days.
I'm aware that you're likely to get addicted to benzos, but they genuinely helped me switch my brain off in the beginning, away from the serious doubts and terrible thoughts I get whenever a panic attack strikes once more.
But now, I already feel like with every new pill I take to combat the bad feelings when they arise anew, the effect wanes rather quickly again. I didn't expect it to happen this quick… I was genuinely at peace with myself for like a day or two.
