Discussion Just tried partial hanging while i have SN in my closet... How to not CTB on an impulse ? Can i try SN without having done the regimen ?

[illAF]

Well, just as the title says.
I did not really tried to CTB, I tried to see if I could be able to do it, if I could find my sweetspot etc. It was more like training.

Anyway. I just saw the sky, it was beautiful. And I was thinking "what a good night to go". So I tried.

The problem is I am very scared of hanging + I really don't want my roomates to find my corpse hanged.

I plan to go with SN.

If I had done the regimen today, I would have done it tonight. But I haven't.

The problem is that I seem to find the strength to ctb ONLY on some impulses.
And with SN, I know I can't do it on an impulse, it has to be prepared.
Or can I ? Could I try without having done the regimen ? I don't eat much during the days (only one banana today). I have drink one beer. And I still have the antiemetics and the benzos. Could I try tonight, even without having done the regimen ?

I see people here planning a date etc. I don't seem to be able to do that. It seems I could only go on an impulse.

How to deal with that ?

Sorry for the rent and the bad English.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

And with SN, I know I can't do it on an impulse, it has to be prepared.
Or can I ? Could I try without having done the regimen ? I don't eat much during the days (only one banana today). I have drink one beer. And I still have the antiemetics and the benzos. Could I try tonight, even without having done the regimen ?

It's not recommended to do SN on impulse. Not even in small doses "just to try".

I drank SN and had mixed feelings after it was over.

First thing, no I will not share with anyone, in a thread or dms where I found my SN. I apologize but it's something I will never be comfortable sharing. I found the source and tested it completely on my own, so it is possible, therefore I will not share my source with anyone. Background my mom...

sanctioned-suicide.net

I drank SN and had mixed feelings after it was over.

First thing, no I will not share with anyone, in a thread or dms where I found my SN. I apologize but it's something I will never be comfortable sharing. I found the source and tested it completely on my own, so it is possible, therefore I will not share my source with anyone. Background my mom...

www.sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[illAF]

It's not recommended to do SN on impulse. Not even in small doses "just to try".

I drank SN and had mixed feelings after it was over.

First thing, no I will not share with anyone, in a thread or dms where I found my SN. I apologize but it's something I will never be comfortable sharing. I found the source and tested it completely on my own, so it is possible, therefore I will not share my source with anyone. Background my mom...

sanctioned-suicide.net

I drank SN and had mixed feelings after it was over.

First thing, no I will not share with anyone, in a thread or dms where I found my SN. I apologize but it's something I will never be comfortable sharing. I found the source and tested it completely on my own, so it is possible, therefore I will not share my source with anyone. Background my mom...

www.sanctioned-suicide.net

In a way, knowing that people actually died when they just wanted to try a few grams, it makes me a bit more confident about doing it when it is on an impulse and without having accomplished all the regimen.

Don't take me wrong :

- I am REALLY sorry and sad about people dying when it was not their intention. I really am.
- I know it is waaaay better to not act impulsive, to plan it, to follow the regimen etc.

But, well, I don't know, I am so confused.

I have a big headache and sensation that my head is turning. That might be because I just tried partial.

Sorry if what I write does not make much sense.

 

[koalamenace12]

Well, just as the title says.
I did not really tried to CTB, I tried to see if I could be able to do it, if I could find my sweetspot etc. It was more like training.

Anyway. I just saw the sky, it was beautiful. And I was thinking "what a good night to go". So I tried.

The problem is I am very scared of hanging + I really don't want my roomates to find my corpse hanged.

I plan to go with SN.

If I had done the regimen today, I would have done it tonight. But I haven't.

The problem is that I seem to find the strength to ctb ONLY on some impulses.
And with SN, I know I can't do it on an impulse, it has to be prepared.
Or can I ? Could I try without having done the regimen ? I don't eat much during the days (only one banana today). I have drink one beer. And I still have the antiemetics and the benzos. Could I try tonight, even without having done the regimen ?

I see people here planning a date etc. I don't seem to be able to do that. It seems I could only go on an impulse.

How to deal with that ?

Sorry for the rent and the bad English.

never apologize for bad english!