Just thinking about death....

[DivineSpark]

gives me feeling of relief...

 

[TransTaxEvader]

It has previously made me quite happy thinking about. it's nice to know that things next month don't matter, I don't have to worry about affording food, rent, utilities, car insurance, health insurance, etc.

just relaxation, kind of a numbing.

things are feeling like they're changing but im not sure

 

[Permanoir]

Yeah, I think that's part of the bittersweet aspect of thinking about suicide. It's easy to imagine the relief of disappearing or no longer existing, but the reality of the process itself is often much harder than we imagine. That might be why so many who survive an attempt change their mind afterward — the experience is not what they had pictured.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, for me non-existence really would be the only relief and is all I hope for, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[theboy]

LIS

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Sending you hugs, hope you are feeling better today.

 

[NonEssential]

Yeah, I think that's part of the bittersweet aspect of thinking about suicide. It's easy to imagine the relief of disappearing or no longer existing, but the reality of the process itself is often much harder than we imagine. That might be why so many who survive an attempt change their mind afterward — the experience is not what they had pictured.

True. Today I went to a store to look at ropes and if any of them would be good enough. When I grabbed and looked at the ropes, it made me feel anxious and had my heart race.