Venting just sad

[luna674]

Feeling sad, my best option is suicide. I can't do anything in life. I'm spending my last few days or weeks imagining what could have been if only I had gotten help as soon as possible. All the things I missed out on because of mental illness, it hurts. I don't want to do it, I just don't want to be me. I'm misunderstood. People don't even give me a chance. I thought I would never have to deal with bullying again, to have to deal with the same shit as an adult, I can't do this anymore. I wish I had been loved. I wish someone cared about me. No one ever cared or was ever there for me. Ii know it's also my fault, I wasn't self-destructive

 

[2106lvsk]

i relate to u so much. anytime i see people my age with bfs/gfs, good grades, achievements etc. i think about how much of a loser i am and how i could have fixed it earlier. i know people (maybe not on this site) would say that i still have time to fix stuff bur i really dont, im fucked up mentally and i have no choice but to kill myself to find peace

 

[A Sit of Doubting]

if you don't have this insane pressing desire to commit, don't do it. im so very sorry you have to go through that. i know my words arent any more than fickle, but please know i care about what youre going thru! its so sad to not be able to take up the same opportunities privy to a stable person just bc of your mental illness, and i hope you achieve all the things u wish for. theres so much more to come, i urge you. it will never be too late to seek help. im wishing you the best of luck, on whatever path you take. and alongside, that better people surround you. lots and lots of love!