Just ramblin

[so this is it]

First time posting. Took psychedelics, entered purgatory, came back to a very disappointing reality only to find I'm some loser in college with nothing going on. Everything is boring and pointless now. Pretty much, realized nothing's gonna matter in 5 years, why bother? Throughout my life I hop from one insanity to the next, used to think i was trans, then became a gun nut, now I'm losing my mind over girls. I'm not dumb but CERTAINLY not smart enough to make any contribution to the world, if anything I'm actively making it worse. Probably would kill myself if it weren't for family. Dumb question but anyway to CTB and avoid breaking their hearts?
Sorry for rambling, hope I get some replies. Friends anyone?
Well, peace

 

[Sutter]

No real way to stop that. Could try to distance yourself but they would probably be hurt by that as well. Some things are as they are and no matter what will be a process to get through. Death is one of those things.

Regardless of your decision to stay or go, thank you for offering consideration for those that are close to you.