I just cancelled my upcoming therapy appointment. Ive pretty much just come to the realization that I am unable change the things that are making me suffer, and am also not willing to try to accept them anymore as it seems like I just get farther from acceptance every day. All me going to therapy is doing is wasting tax dollars (gov insurance), and wasting resources that could be spent helping people that actually want it. Since doing this, ive felt so much more at peace and almost happy for the first time in months. I originally wanted to CTB asap but now im thinking that once my SN gets here, ill just hold onto it, and if things magically get better, I might not use it, and if things get even shittier again, ill drink it. I guess its just nice to have the option now.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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I understand why you would feel relieved at knowing that you will have the option of a way to finally leave this world, I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward.
