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anxiousguineapig

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May 4, 2022
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Not really asking a question here, I just feel... weird. I have SN but I have a lot of anxiety about getting trapped in a situation where I want to ctb and can't (right now I'm away for a couple months and didn't bring it in case airport security found it) so I've been reading about other methods. I'd tried to compress my carotid arteries in the past using a cord I held with my hands, so I'd release it if I went unconscious. I was never successful, only managed to get teh jugulars and feel a ton of pressure in my head. But this time when I got to a certain pressure, within a few seconds I felt dizzy, tingly, and weak so I lost my grip on the cord as intended.

I don't know what to do with this feeling. it alleviates my anxiety a lot but also feels strange. with SN there is no rehearsal or testing it so the feeling of experiencing what I might experience before dying is messing with my head a little.
 
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Not really asking a question here, I just feel... weird. I have SN but I have a lot of anxiety about getting trapped in a situation where I want to ctb and can't (right now I'm away for a couple months and didn't bring it in case airport security found it) so I've been reading about other methods. I'd tried to compress my carotid arteries in the past using a cord I held with my hands, so I'd release it if I went unconscious. I was never successful, only managed to get teh jugulars and feel a ton of pressure in my head. But this time when I got to a certain pressure, within a few seconds I felt dizzy, tingly, and weak so I lost my grip on the cord as intended.

I don't know what to do with this feeling. it alleviates my anxiety a lot but also feels strange. with SN there is no rehearsal or testing it so the feeling of experiencing what I might experience before dying is messing with my head a little.
How'd you find it?
 
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anxiousguineapig

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May 4, 2022
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How'd you find it?
just trial and error, for me going high up on the neck (almost under the jaw) seemed to work well. using some padding (just the edge of a blanket) helped for some reason too, I suspect it may have reduced friction making it easier to make the cord tight. it really does feel like a lot of pressure when you pull on it, though I imagine tightening it with another object like you would to actually ctb would probably be easier - I wanted to test it with a more realistic setup but I can't come up with anything that isn't super risky. I fell over (while sitting) within a few seconds and it would take even less time to lose coordination so the effects are essentially instant. I know a lot of people can't get it to work but when it does it's scary how fast it is so please be careful if testing it.
 
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catnowmeowmeow

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Do u think u could pull it off without much anxiety.
 

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