Venting just listening to music while trying to push away the strong suicidal thoughts

[huftydumdum]

i've already marked my due date some time next year, on an insignificant day so that people aren't too sad, I hope that my mind changes by then or I get help

I plan on cutting off my friends a month prior, or to make them hate me before I reach my deadlines. writing this it seems like i just love to self-sabotage omfg

i find it a little funny that one of my friends had a nightmare about me committing too, she was worried for like a total of a week before things went back to normal. i feel insignificant honestly

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever happens going forward, good luck.