I feel like this doesn't suit recovery, even though I've been posting there more, it just feel like it fits better here.
She finally found the time to call me, apparently she's been very busy, also hit someone in her car. She's okay, no one was hurt, just a minor fender bender
Anyways, on the call, we both cried. We both have been thinking about each other, she even still listens to songs that remind her of me, which I found kinda odd. I've always just assumed she was over me but she told me today that she wasn't.
We talked about second chances and she said that I shouldn't count on it but she could see it, but not to count the chickens before they hatch, which for those of you who don't know what that means (I don't know how common the phrase is), it means essentially to not depend on a good outcome to occur unless you are sure that it will occur. She also explained a few other issues I noted (her being overly dry for example, she said she has to because she's busy and doesn't want her boyfriend to see her texting me). She told me she isn't sure if her relationship will even work out and I should try to move forward, she clarified that she doesn't mean move on, she said "I know that's hard, I haven't even moved on yet".
Either way, I'm fine keeping this friendship for now, I've been attempting to heal, somewhat successfully but there have been failures here and there, I've failed more recently as I've been tormented at night with dreams and nightmares alike of her, and it's led to very restless nights.
I feel some sort of way about this, neither good nor bad, definitely a bit relieved to get stuff off my chest to her, as well as her responding positively to it. I knew this could possibly go bad heading into it, and I'm just glad it didn't go that way.
If I meet someone new, and I like them, I'm definitely giving that a shot. I am trying to move forward, I've just failed recently.
She finally found the time to call me, apparently she's been very busy, also hit someone in her car. She's okay, no one was hurt, just a minor fender bender
Anyways, on the call, we both cried. We both have been thinking about each other, she even still listens to songs that remind her of me, which I found kinda odd. I've always just assumed she was over me but she told me today that she wasn't.
We talked about second chances and she said that I shouldn't count on it but she could see it, but not to count the chickens before they hatch, which for those of you who don't know what that means (I don't know how common the phrase is), it means essentially to not depend on a good outcome to occur unless you are sure that it will occur. She also explained a few other issues I noted (her being overly dry for example, she said she has to because she's busy and doesn't want her boyfriend to see her texting me). She told me she isn't sure if her relationship will even work out and I should try to move forward, she clarified that she doesn't mean move on, she said "I know that's hard, I haven't even moved on yet".
Either way, I'm fine keeping this friendship for now, I've been attempting to heal, somewhat successfully but there have been failures here and there, I've failed more recently as I've been tormented at night with dreams and nightmares alike of her, and it's led to very restless nights.
I feel some sort of way about this, neither good nor bad, definitely a bit relieved to get stuff off my chest to her, as well as her responding positively to it. I knew this could possibly go bad heading into it, and I'm just glad it didn't go that way.
If I meet someone new, and I like them, I'm definitely giving that a shot. I am trying to move forward, I've just failed recently.
