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1Mazda16
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- Sep 5, 2021
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Damn, I had a lot of fun. Drank and ate a lot. Didn't lose too much money gambling, ironically enough. Tipped heavily to people who probably deserved it.
A bit of sadness hung in the air knowing this was the last time.
They put me on the 25th floor of the hotel tower. Even though jumping is not my preferred method, I couldn't help noticing how the casement window was secured: a small metal track guard secured by 2 specialty screws. A special screwdriver is needed to remove the screws--however those screws could be easily drilled out in less than 5 minutes and the window is opened. The fall would have been 16 floors due to another building at the base of the tower--definitely lethal. I got a lot of respect for you "jumpers" out there.
Anyways, I'm drinking almost everyday trying to get brave enough to go through with CTB. Or maybe a call from the psychiatrist with good news will save my ass(doubt it). Or maybe just hoping for some other miracle(doubt it). My life sucks and the world still does, too. The holidays mean nothing to me.
A bit of sadness hung in the air knowing this was the last time.
They put me on the 25th floor of the hotel tower. Even though jumping is not my preferred method, I couldn't help noticing how the casement window was secured: a small metal track guard secured by 2 specialty screws. A special screwdriver is needed to remove the screws--however those screws could be easily drilled out in less than 5 minutes and the window is opened. The fall would have been 16 floors due to another building at the base of the tower--definitely lethal. I got a lot of respect for you "jumpers" out there.
Anyways, I'm drinking almost everyday trying to get brave enough to go through with CTB. Or maybe a call from the psychiatrist with good news will save my ass(doubt it). Or maybe just hoping for some other miracle(doubt it). My life sucks and the world still does, too. The holidays mean nothing to me.