too risky. my stomach cant handle alcohol very well im worried thtll make me vomit them up. i do have a little xanax so that should do.
I hope everything works out for you. I'm not trying to to tell you to do anything but alcohol will wash those down nicely
Did something happen recently to make you place more urgency on leaving? Do you think your family member may be able to help you with whatever it is you're going through right now?
when my mom passed at 13,i decided id take myself out at 18. it was a way of holding onto an escape so grief didnt hit me so hard. ive been fixated on the idea sicne then. turned 18 last month so im well past my expiration date.
im going through a pretty tough breakup right now, id be lying if i said that didnt influence how i felt. i met him a little over a year after she passed and that year consisted of sitting in my room staring at my closet pondering on this, i got really deep into escapism and wrapped up in this person who eventually just shit on me over n over again since then. but i was kind of an awful person to b around too i just wish he wasnt so angry n mean to me. i sorta fucked him over this time so i cant really feel that sorry for myself.
this isnt something im not positive about, theres been moments ive had hope, but no schooling, no mom, no self image, no comfort at home, 4 yr relationship with someone who rly doesnt give a shit about me has kinda been icing on the cake
my mom was an addict, she took me out of school n passed shortly later so i literally have 0 education ive just been sitting here crying and rotting
ive felt like ive been haunting the people around me for a very long time
i dont really ave a want to reach out or try to feel better because i know ill be working for nothing, no ambitions or wants besides disappearing since i was a kid
i dont wanna be dependent on people to feel okay knowing ill never be ok on my own
ill just end up a dead beat drug addict anyways so might as well cut myslef the pain of watching that happen
