Just checked into my hotel

[Unspoken]

Tonight is the night.
I will be going by partial suspension hanging. I don't have an option for full. I have practiced several times and I'm confident I can succeed.
I plan on getting relatively drunk and taking Xanax to calm nerves.
Please keep me company while I drink and prepare. I'll try to update as the night goes on.

 

[alexit]

what are you going to hang from?

 

[clocktower]

i'm sorry life has brought you to this point friend.

wishing you a peaceful smooth journey tonight. how are you feeling?

 

[Unspoken]

what are you going to hang from?

A rope anchored to the bathroom door jam.

i'm sorry life has brought you to this point friend.

wishing you a peaceful smooth journey tonight. how are you feeling?

Thank you so much for your kind words. I feel a little nervous, but assured. I feel heartbroken for my family, cried for them a few times.

 

[inactive]

Thinking of you, OP. It must have taken a lot to reach this point. Do keep us updated <3

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish you peace and a safe transition. Unfortunately I can't be on much longer tonight as I have to be awake early.

 

[Unspoken]

Thinking of you, OP. It must have taken a lot to reach this point. Do keep us updated <3

Thank you. It has been quite the journey. A few unsuccessful attempts along the way. But I'm here now and ready.
I really like your username!

I wish you peace and a safe transition. Unfortunately I can't be on much longer tonight as I have to be awake early.

Thank you so much. Your well wishes are plenty enough. I hope you sleep well!

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I lit a little candle for you as well, I hope it's light will guide you to love and peace

 

[falloutcarter13]

Best wishes...I'm sorry life has brought you here, I hope you're as prepared as you can be. If its your time, I wish you a smooth, peaceful transition

 

[Unspoken]

I lit a little candle for you as well, I hope it's light will guide you to love and peace

Thank you. This brought tears to my eyes and comforts me immensely.

 

[profoundexperience]

Please allow me to dedicate some words to you, @Unspoken... both for right now in this very moment... but also, if you must, for whatever may come... up to and including the moment of your death... and also for whatever (if anything) that lies beyond.

May you be free of suffering, @Unspoken (now and always).
May you have mental happiness, @Unspoken.
May you have physical happiness, @Unspoken.
May you have ease of well being, @Unspoken.

I wholeheartedly hope and wish that everything goes exactly as you would want... Love, @profoundexperience

 

[Greenberg]

All the best. Thank you.

 

[Unspoken]

Please allow me to dedicate some words to you, @Unspoken... both for right now in this very moment... but also, if you must, for whatever may come... up to and including the moment of your death... and also for whatever (if anything) that lies beyond.

May you be free of suffering, @Unspoken (now and always).
May you have mental happiness, @Unspoken.
May you have physical happiness, @Unspoken.
May you have ease of well being, @Unspoken.

I wholeheartedly hope and wish that everything goes exactly as you would want... Love, @profoundexperience

Wow, thank you. Those are some really impactful statements. I will hold on to them this evening.

 

[InterstateFlowers]

Hello, OP! I wish you peace on your journey and that everything goes smoothly. I'm sorry life has treated you cruelly. Taking one's life is lonely so I hope this thread provides the warm comfort you need.

 

[Unspoken]

Hello, OP! I wish you peace on your journey and that everything goes smoothly. I'm sorry life has treated you cruelly. Taking one's life is lonely so I hope this thread provides the warm comfort you need.

Thank you. All of these kind thoughts are helping me feel less alone. It is quite a lonely process. I am grateful for you and other members' kindness.

 

[profoundexperience]

All of these kind thoughts are helping me feel less alone. It is quite a lonely process.

It is the nature of this life, that there are some things that every one of us must experience/do "alone"...

...so you're not "alone in your -- in this loneliness" (as everyone gets that feeling).

Not sure if I'm making sense...

 

[Deleted member 14177]

Wishing you peace

 

[Unspoken]

I appreciate all the kindness and good vibes. My heart feels full.

 

[mellow]

you seem lovely, I wish this world / life were kinder to people like you. thinking of you

 

[profoundexperience]

May you be free of suffering, @Unspoken (now and always).
May you have mental happiness, @Unspoken (now and always).
May you have physical happiness, @Unspoken (now and always)
May you have ease of well being, @Unspoken (now and always).

 

[BlackCatTalk]

Have a good transition, I wish you peace and we'll see you soon. Send u lots of love

 

[KleinerWolf]

Feel free to back out if you don't want it.
Otherwise I'm wishing you peaceful travels.

 

[Silver]

It was good to see you in chat, @Unspoken . Good luck and peace to you.

 

[Captive of Mind]

I just got my account approved 5 minutes ago and have been sitting here following your post with intense emotion. I wanted to reply and express to you how you should not at all feel bad about your choice. We are brought into this world by no choice of our own. We are kept here against our will and forced to suffer by people who don't care about us, don't have a clue what we are going through, and even intentionally make us feel worse! I don't have a damn person around that I believe truly cares for me and I can't blame them because, frankly, I don't like myself too much either. We did not choose our genetics, our environment, or our life events. No one can choose the thoughts they have. Those people who are doing well and loving life, they did not choose to have those thoughts either. Where do thoughts come from and where do they go? No one has control over whether their life is miserable or full of happiness.

 

[Unspoken]

I just got my account approved 5 minutes ago and have been sitting here following your post with intense emotion. I wanted to reply and express to you how you should not at all feel bad about your choice. We are brought into this world by no choice of our own. We are kept here against our will and forced to suffer by people who don't care about us, don't have a clue what we are going through, and even intentionally make us feel worse! I don't have a damn person around that I believe truly cares for me and I can't blame them because, frankly, I don't like myself too much either. We did not choose our genetics, our environment, or our life events. No one can choose the thoughts they have. Those people who are doing well and loving life, they did not choose to have those thoughts either. Where do thoughts come from and where do they go? No one has control over whether their life is miserable or full of happiness.

Wow!!! So true. We gotta make our own choices.

 

[profoundexperience]

... you should not at all feel bad about your choice. We are brought into this world by no choice of our own. We are kept here against our will and forced to suffer by people who don't care about us, don't have a clue what we are going through, and even intentionally make us feel worse! I don't have a damn person around that I believe truly cares for me and I can't blame them because, frankly, I don't like myself too much either. We did not choose our genetics, our environment, or our life events. No one can choose the thoughts they have. Those people who are doing well and loving life, they did not choose to have those thoughts either. Where do thoughts come from and where do they go? No one has control over whether their life is miserable or full of happiness.

Welcome & extremely well said, @SuchAStrangeWorld!

Me = Absolutely the same! See...

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/is-there-any-point-to-being-alive.41926/post-766130

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/things-that-make-you-want-to-kys.45353/post-822214

 

[Unspoken]

Getting rhinga ready now. Am very drunk. Time to go. Any last words?

 

[inactive]

Wishing you peace :)

 

[profoundexperience]

What words from us would be most helpful to you right now?

 

[falloutcarter13]

Getting rhinga ready now. Am very drunk. Time to go. Any last words?

Just that we love you. Do *you* have any last words is more what I want to hear, if you want to say them my friend