Just a status update.

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Hey fellas. Managed to get the noose ready. Even if the rope of choice is.. Odd. (I used a jacket string. Buying a rope would look suspicious. Had to be crafty.) Anchor of choice found! And now gaining courage. I doubt I'm gonna go through with it today. Since I am probably gonna get too terrified (if that makes sense.) So uh. That's about it. Just drawing as of the moment. (yes, I'm using pixilart, and also yes. That's monsoon. Aint the best at pixel art.)

 

[GoSan1]

Hey thats a nice pixelart! Used to do it too, was pretty fun.

And I'm sorry about your situation, hope you find your peace too...

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Hey thats a nice pixelart! Used to do it too, was pretty fun.

And I'm sorry about your situation, hope you find your peace too...

Yea. I ain't scared of death or the discomfort. I'm scared of what comes next. Probably gonna go to hell due to the whole committing suicide thing.

 

[GoSan1]

Yea. I ain't scared of death or the discomfort. I'm scared of what comes next. Probably gonna go to hell due to the whole committing suicide thing.

I dont think suicide is a carnal sin, but who am I to know that. I wish you peace.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

I dont think suicide is a carnal sin, but who am I to know that. I wish you peace.

I semi-consider it a sin. And plus. I've been told many things this month. Been told to kill myself 3-4 times and been told to go to hell. Death threats always leave me so demotivated. And now I carry a noose sometimes just for comfort. Don't know why its comforting. Just is.

 

[L'absent]

Will you do a total suspension?

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Will you do a total suspension?

Yea.

 

[L'absent]

Yea.

So it's almost certain that you will leave us. I hug you tightly and hope you find peace. I am sorry.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

So it's almost certain that you will leave us. I hug you tightly and hope you find peace. I am sorry.

Quite glad I will be leaving soon. On my way to freedom.

 

[dontlook]

Hey fellas. Managed to get the noose ready. Even if the rope of choice is.. Odd. (I used a jacket string. Buying a rope would look suspicious. Had to be crafty.) Anchor of choice found! And now gaining courage. I doubt I'm gonna go through with it today. Since I am probably gonna get too terrified (if that makes sense.) So uh. That's about it. Just drawing as of the moment. (yes, I'm using pixilart, and also yes. That's monsoon. Aint the best at pixel art.)

Using a jacket string for full suspension is just asking for failure. Have you read the hanging threads? When do you plan to commit?

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Using a jacket string for full suspension is just asking for failure. Have you read the hanging threads? When do you plan to commit?

Good point. Searching for better a rope right now

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[GoSan1]

I semi-consider it a sin. And plus. I've been told many things this month. Been told to kill myself 3-4 times and been told to go to hell. Death threats always leave me so demotivated. And now I carry a noose sometimes just for comfort. Don't know why its comforting. Just is.

I used to sometimes say such things too, I despise myself for it now. No human should just easily tell another human to end themselves. So as one of such people I do ask for your forgiveness even tho I probably haven't said it to you, I still feel obliged to apologize. Those people have no right to tell you to go to such horrible place, only god decides that. Sorry you're going through all of this.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

I used to sometimes say such things too, I despise myself for it now. No human should just easily tell another human to end themselves. So as one of such people I do ask for your forgiveness even tho I probably haven't said it to you, I still feel obliged to apologize. Those people have no right to tell you to go to such horrible place, only god decides that. Sorry you're going through all of this.

I also used to do it. Only when I got real mad. And I accidentally made a friend of mine kill himself(if you wanna know why. Check my thread title "WHAT HAVE I DONE?) . I'm definitely going to hell no matter what

 

[GoSan1]

I also used to do it. Only when I got real mad. And I accidentally made a friend of mine kill himself(if you wanna know why. Check my thread title "WHAT HAVE I DONE?) . I'm definitely going to hell no matter what

Only god can judge us brother, as long as we truly regret our actions, I think at least a small chance is there for us. But then again, don't listen to me, I'm a broken mess ngl. Just don't be too hard on yourself pls

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Only god can judge us brother, as long as we truly regret our actions, I think at least a small chance is there for us. But then again, don't listen to me, I'm a broken mess ngl. Just don't be too hard on yourself pls

I already am hard on myself. I'm a weirdo (as the name implies.) Sometimes during extreme pain and I caused it. I kinda start laughing a little bit. Don't know why. I guess I find it funny that I caused it.

 

[passedawayinapril]

Hey fellas. Managed to get the noose ready. Even if the rope of choice is.. Odd. (I used a jacket string. Buying a rope would look suspicious. Had to be crafty.) Anchor of choice found! And now gaining courage. I doubt I'm gonna go through with it today. Since I am probably gonna get too terrified (if that makes sense.) So uh. That's about it. Just drawing as of the moment. (yes, I'm using pixilart, and also yes. That's monsoon. Aint the best at pixel art.)

Ok

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Ok

Jeez those cuts (your pfp) look deep. That looks like beans or deeper.

 

[dontlook]

I already am hard on myself. I'm a weirdo (as the name implies.) Sometimes during extreme pain and I caused it. I kinda start laughing a little bit. Don't know why. I guess I find it funny that I caused it.

Laughter at inappropriate times can be an involuntary stress response or even a symptom of brain injury. Try not to feel too bad if you didn't actually find it funny. If you did find it funny, that's just cruel.

 

[JustSomeWeirdo]

Laughter at inappropriate times can be an involuntary stress response or even a symptom of brain injury. Try not to feel too bad if you didn't actually find it funny. If you did find it funny, that's just cruel.

Well I don't laugh at others pain. And don't really find it funny. Its probably the stress thing. But I ain't no expert.

(JESUS MOTHERFUCKING CHRIST WHY CANT I SPELL TODAY!?!?)