divinemistress36
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- Jan 1, 2024
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I wish I had the balls to jump when I watch those who ctb on wpd it looks so quick. It would be absolutely terrifying but over so quick
Fentanyl overdose would be the ideal method . I don't have access to it. I do wonder if taking a bunch of benzos before jumping would help make it less scaryIs it your chosen method overall?
I was thinking about a combined method like finding a precarious ledge (steep dropoff not hitting things on the way down) and taking fentanyl+benzos in an amount itself that might be lethal and letting myself fall as I pass out. Would have to be really high though because then you can't try and land on your head. There's gotta be some drugs that would make jumping more appealing though.
Are you considering it?Yes the quickest and most scary method imo, im very close to a new bridge in my city with no barrier , already 6 or 7 known suicide, its high enough.
Why do you watch those videos? I mean I don't like people but looking at that type of content would only make me worse. Seeing terorist beheadijg by accident as a teen was enough to desensitise me to it but I wouldn't actively go out and seek it.I wish I had the balls to jump when I watch those who ctb on wpd it looks so quick. It would be absolutely terrifying but over so quick
Out of curiousity of what it looks like. The comments on there are disgustingWhy do you watch those videos? I mean I don't like people but looking at that type of content would only make me worse. Seeing terorist beheadijg by accident as a teen was enough to desensitise me to it but I wouldn't actively go out and seek it.
I mean (to me logically) got enough problems and trauma shit. Adding more just makes things even more unbearable. Just going to stick to animal videos lol.Out of curiousity of what it looks like. The comments on there are disgusting
Yes if SN doesn't work. I will try to kill myself as soon as i lie myself out of the hospital, killing myself over and over again until i die for sure.Are you considering it?
He suffered as a vegetable for 5 years before dying from another disease. That's why it's important to choose the right heightI've been accompanying my mother to her physiotherapy. Her appointment is at the 14th floor of a building, which lets me contemplate the view from there. I've always wanted a private ctb, but sometimes I also want something irreversible, and jumping seems like that kind of option.
Then, yesterday, I read about a famous salsa singer which jumped from a 9th floor... and survived. Don't know if 5 extra floors would've made a difference, but that is very scary. I guess I need to find a higher place.
He suffered as a vegetable for 5 years before dying from another disease. That's why it's important to choose the right height