Jealousy

[Whatiwantiswhatiwas]

Hi everyone,

I'm new here. I have 4 failed attempts from the age of 11-18 years old. I'm now in my 30s. All from overdoses first one the most lethal amirtripyline at age 11. It put me in a coma. The two at 16 painkilles, first Iburprofen obviously it did nothing for me. I was found and sent to hospital. The dr mentioned if it had been paracetamol that could have been fatal. So I tried that a week later. Obviously failed. The last one was mixture, of street drugs, prescriptions I just woke up 3 days later
I'm now in my 30s. Been on and off anti depressants they work for a few months then I'm back where I started. Feeling so miserable and I can't cope much for of like throws at me. Anyway when every I hear people succeed I'm so jealous they probably have had one attempt and success. I've never been the kind of person to get jealous of people and their matrieal things or what they look like. I get so jealous when I hear people succeed and I have epically failed everytime. I'm so glad I've found this forum. That I can have support and maybe even help in knowing the right methods for me, when it's my turn. Xx

 

[Sinbad]

Welcome to SS, this place is a Cockaigne for suicidal souls like yourself.

 

[52shriek]

Welcome, I'm sure this place will bring you some comfort, until the time comes. It is a very friendly community of like-minded people.

 

[Moony21]

Welcom

 

[Jiva]

Welcome

 

[Tyuiop]

Welcome, your profile pic is funny!
You're not the only person who has this problem with antidepressants, they're honestly no better than placebo.

 

[Donewith_]

Welcome here:)

 

[Whatiwantiswhatiwas]

Welcome, your profile pic is funny!
You're not the only person who has this problem with antidepressants, they're honestly no better than placebo.

Agreed, they help for afew months maximum then I feel worse than I did before I started taking them. Literally tried so many. Haha yeah my profile pic is literally me all year. Getting out of bed is one of the biggest chores. I think most people on here would agree. lol xx

 

[Lifeisatrap]

Welcome:) I too get jealous of people who succeed. Especially hearing of people really young succeeding, makes me feel like even more of a pathetic failure:(

 

[Kingkelly]

Agreed, they help for afew months maximum then I feel worse than I did before I started taking them. Literally tried so many. Haha yeah my profile pic is literally me all year. Getting out of bed is one of the biggest chores. I think most people on here would agree. lol xx

Lol this picture is life..haha me af...haven't left my bed really since August not proud of it. . its just the way it is until I CBT.

 

[stargazer]

I'm also very jealous but then my mood gets back to normality and I realise, I can't be selfish.

Good for them who do go.

I guess it's just a waiting game for the rest of us, like me, still left here (not just as a member I mean).

 

[Comatose11]

Welcome although it makes me very sad you felt this way at 11 :(