Venting I’ve never had a friend

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I wish I could be friends with you but, unfortunately, I can't. After all, my lifelong loneliness by not having made a single irl friend is there for a reason. Just thinking about the idea of friendship overwhelms me. Whilst I do wish that I could navigate life with a friend, I get easily overwhelmed and I know that I will get overwhelmed when socialising. My neurotype isn't such that I can have friends. Some people are just meant to be alone and I'm one of them. Additionally, I never really had any personality too and I still don't. My personality doesn't go beyond "I find death peaceful; I want to be dead asap". I can never talk about any interesting topics as there's nothing that I like

I'm just permanently fucked from being myself and I'm sorry for that. If I was more normal, I'd be friends with you or at least try to. I hope that you find peace or real friendships one day

Fuck, this is the only thread in this entire site that made me have feelings for. I'm on the verge of tears

Very relatable.

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I've never had any friends in all the time i've been on this planet. I was trying to fool myself into thinking i didn't need anyone, how wrong i was. One of the things that has caused this intense 'sehnsucht' feeling is because of the loneliness, it hurts so much.

My social skills suck because i hardly interact with anyone. I think i usually come across as very self-centered. Maybe partly because of the abandonment i suffered? I'm not sure.

 

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I was trying to fool myself into thinking i didn't need anyone, how wrong i was. One of the things that has caused this intense 'sehnsucht' feeling is because of the loneliness, it hurts so much.

I also tried fooling myself that I didn't need anyone. I still try to but I understand that I would be so much farther ahead in life if I had friends.

My social skills suck because i hardly interact with anyone. I think i usually come across as very self-centered. Maybe partly because of the abandonment i suffered? I'm not sure.

I feel this way too. I don't really know how others perceive me though, or what they think, but I always can't help but think I'm selfish or egoistic in one way or another. My social skills are so bad I feel like every word that comes out of mouth is wrong or incorrect in one way or another. In the end of the day, I don't know what I'd do if someone decided to talk or interact with me.

 

[iloverachel]

I can be your friend