Help I've never gotten any mental health support.

[ChocoPie]

So guys I live in a place where mental heath isn't taken seriously, one time I tried to talk abt it to my mom and she said - 'what ? You r already mental at this age?' at that time I understood that they will never take me seriously....and so even as an adult I never reached out bcz even the doctors here are like that, I see many of u guys having therapists and using meds for anxiety and depression, I've never done any of it....I feel like I've reached out a point where I have learnt how to take care of myself and not panic too hard, I just know how to distract myself sometimes and how to be detached but there r times I mess and I don't know what to do, how do I control myself when I suddenly start overanalyzing and hating myself? it's so bad that I can't sleep at nights without my phone, I have to tire myself or just day dream to stop the hate.

 

[kopebaldy]

I feel this all too well coming from a country where anything mental related is either autism or straight up crazy, any help is basically a variation of "just stop doing that".

Normal people can't understand how hard it is to be like them.

 

[Wolf Girl]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Self-hatred and feelings of worthlessness are devastating. Sometimes it helps me to look around at the world and realize how so many people are just garbage, then compare myself. I compare the things that matter: human decency, kindness, capacity for love, empathy. I realized I'm not so bad compared to half my country.

Is it possible to do telehealth therapy where you live? Do you have insurance or money to pay?

 

[ChocoPie]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Self-hatred and feelings of worthlessness are devastating. Sometimes it helps me to look around at the world and realize how so many people are just garbage, then compare myself. I compare the things that matter: human decency, kindness, capacity for love, empathy. I realized I'm not so bad compared to half my country.

Is it possible to do telehealth therapy where you live? Do you have insurance or money to pay?

Ugh, I wish I was self independent....but no I don't have a job yet and I live with my parents even though I'm an adult ( u know a very typical asian family ), it's almost impossible to get any professional help....but it's fine, I'm planning to CTB this year, I strongly wish I succeed, I wanna leave this world ASAP.

 

[Nightfoot]

That sounds like a very difficult situation. I'm sorry that you're suffering. Self-hatred is rough, but try to believe that you don't deserve hate from anyone including yourself.

 

[Galam]

Mental health support is a scam, you sound really naive and I assume this is because you are privileged enough (maybe middle-class) that nobody forced you into a situation where you need to go to a theRapist or into asylum.

The diagnoses will take away your humans rights, and make your chances of a good job position unreachable. And normal people just see you as crazy all the time, you will not get any real health care becase many doctors won't support humans that are stigmatized as crazy. Doctors are also very often misogynists, racist, and hateful towards lower-class unemployed humans. They will pressure you easly into a false diagnose. I was stigmatized with OCD, personality disorder, phobia... just because these men and women disliked me and don't gaf about my real problems. I suffer from Fetal Alcohol Syndrom and have since my puberty a bad body odor, and virilization. I maybe have thyroid issues and had ovarian cysts, difficult periods or no periods with 30 now and with 28 I had shingels.
They do not really care about it. I needed to use perplexity.ai to write me a selfprescription for meds only doctors can give you because no doctor would give me a prescription. They always pretendet to be full with patients and just didn't wanted me in their room. So I am my own doctor and tbh I just need meds the doctors are so worthless. If I I could fake documents so I can get welfare for disability and care assistance my life would not be so bad anymore. They see that I have problems but they choose to not help me and actively try to make me homeless.

 

[ChocoPie]

Mental health support is a scam, you sound really naive and I assume this is because you are privileged enough (maybe middle-class) that nobody forced you into a situation where you need to go to a theRapist or into asylum.

The diagnoses will take away your humans rights, and make your chances of a good job position unreachable. And normal people just see you as crazy all the time, you will not get any real health care becase many doctors won't support humans that are stigmatized as crazy. Doctors are also very often misogynists, racist, and hateful towards lower-class unemployed humans. They will pressure you easly into a false diagnose. I was stigmatized with OCD, personality disorder, phobia... just because these men and women disliked me and don't gaf about my real problems. I suffer from Fetal Alcohol Syndrom and have since my puberty a bad body odor, and virilization. I maybe have thyroid issues and had ovarian cysts, difficult periods or no periods with 30 now and with 28 I had shingels.
They do not really care about it. I needed to use perplexity.ai to write me a selfprescription for meds only doctors can give you because no doctor would give me a prescription. They always pretendet to be full with patients and just didn't wanted me in their room. So I am my own doctor and tbh I just need meds the doctors are so worthless. If I I could fake documents so I can get welfare for disability and care assistance my life would not be so bad anymore. They see that I have problems but they choose to not help me and actively try to make me homeless.

I'm so sorry u had to go through all that, it's my worst nightmare.
You are right, I don't care abt getting mental health supports anymore, I think I can take care of myself, mental health is seen as absolute joke in most places of my country, I'm sure the 'professionls' aren't much different.
I feel like getting stuck with all that will make it harder for me to CTB, acting normal is the best way I can do this without raising suspicion

 

[Galam]

I'm so sorry u had to go through all that, it's my worst nightmare.
You are right, I don't care abt getting mental health supports anymore, I think I can take care of myself, mental health is seen as absolute joke in most places of my country, I'm sure the 'professionls' aren't much different.
I feel like getting stuck with all that will make it harder for me to CTB, acting normal is the best way I can do this without raising suspicion

Be happy that you don't need to go to these ill people. Also you can read on reddit in r/therapyabuse or r/antipsychatry or r/antipsychiatrywomen too how ill mental health workers are. They are psychopaths.

btw if you have bad feelings, and you don't take any other meds I can recommend eating St Johns Wort capsuls (Johaniskrautkapseln).

I used it to make me feel a little better and for me it helped. I feel not so sad and had the energy to write complains (perplexity.ai helped me with it). I took it in 1.000mg for 2 weeks every day and since I started with spironolacton and minoxidil I just use it rarely between them.