NSFW I've Lost My Sensitivity to Sexual Pleasure

[Crematoryy]

Since the day all the meaning I created was brutally destroyed by the world, I stopped seeing and feeling pleasure in the things that once made sense. The expectations that once drove me now echo like jokes from a version of myself that has disappeared. For some reason, having my heart broken by someone I loved left me sterile.

I have no interest in starting a new relationship with new people, nor do I feel any sensitivity to orgasmic pleasure anymore. I never thought that what I always longed for could become so uninteresting. Sex doesn't attract me; all I desire is to be loved deeply. My feelings were very important but weren't treated with due care. Giving so much to another human being has left me permanently empty. Nothing can repair this wound.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Just become a goth, anhedonia is like, the most goth shit you can have.

 

[pax420]

I lost somebody after 23 years, right at two years ago. Everything still works just fine except the will and desire is completely gone. I don't think it will ever come back. It's been two years and really all I miss is her companionship. Maybe finding someone else will fill that void but I don't expect to be here much longer anyway but if I was I wouldn't want to go thru all that again.

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

Feel u so much dude. If you really choose not to pursue any other relationships in the future then that is at least noble of you, for whatever that's worth.

 

[Secro]

Try to fill this emptiness with something else; life isn't just about human relationships.

 

[caotic_realm]

I am sorry to hear about your bad experiences with human relationships. I believe that, regarding sex, you aren't missing out on any pleasure; ultimately, it is a biological trick that serves only to perpetuate the chain of misery in every being's existence—from mosquitoes that eagerly seek blood to procreate, risking and losing their lives in various ways, to animals or more complex forms of life like humans, who keep reproducing simply out of the irrational desire to "embody" their longing for another person.

I am addicted to pornography and masturbation; I've been clean for a few weeks now, but I've used this as an escape since I was a teenager. Ultimately—in a cruel twist of fate—it turned into an addiction rooted in the sadness and pain of almost constant romantic rejection and a lack of friends. Pornography and masturbation became my refuge; and although I've wanted it badly (and deep down, that desire persists, however faintly), I sometimes feel revulsion at the thought of sex. There is a sense of disgust—though it is very vague—and I can't say it stems from hatred of the opposite sex or from disliking myself.

I don't know if you're okay with not experiencing sexual pleasure—sorry if I've misinterpreted your post—but ultimately, as I said, you aren't missing out on anything. Deep down, I think I'd also prefer to have absolutely no sexual desire; it would probably be best for humanity. Sometimes I fantasize about more advanced civilizations that no longer need sex, since it's so closely tied to the ego, attachment, and the drive to "stay alive"—beings like that wouldn't need those sensations anymore.