collidedsigns
Scholar of despair and anguish
- Nov 22, 2025
- 44
I hate everything right now. I can't sleep, I don't want to eat, I can't socialise, I can't focus on anything, I haven't been showering/brushing my teeth everything is too much.
I bought everything I need for the "night night" method. I think today is the day, I'm so god dam tired. I really have no urge to keep going and honestly I am at peace with the idea of CTB. I don't feel scared or apprehensive I'm actually calm thinking about it being all over. I spent my last weekend with my best friend, I don't have any family so I don't feel ties there and everyone else I feel bad but this is what I want. And I'm okay with them being mad at me, I won't be alive to hear it.
I'm just ready for eternal sleep. I don't feel I'll miss out on anything by being dead. I'm happy to just go now.
I bought everything I need for the "night night" method. I think today is the day, I'm so god dam tired. I really have no urge to keep going and honestly I am at peace with the idea of CTB. I don't feel scared or apprehensive I'm actually calm thinking about it being all over. I spent my last weekend with my best friend, I don't have any family so I don't feel ties there and everyone else I feel bad but this is what I want. And I'm okay with them being mad at me, I won't be alive to hear it.
I'm just ready for eternal sleep. I don't feel I'll miss out on anything by being dead. I'm happy to just go now.
