Venting I've finally planned how to kill myself

[RustedandWeathered]

Sorry if this is too graphic.

I'm going to slit my wrists down to the bone and then blow my fucking brains out. My blood will get everywhere. I'll wear my Creed shirt, my ripped jeans, and my converse when I do it.. I'll also put my hair up in a low ponytail with a middle part. My blood will tangle in my hair. I'll have my My Own Prison CD playing loud to drown out the sound of the gunshot. My family will find me a bloody mess with my brains blown onto the wall.. I'll probably be pale from blood loss. That's how I will kill myself on the 15th.

 

[wannabeangel]

even tho i want/need my own time to CTB as painless as possible, i understand wanting to just make myself a bloody mess. i still cant imagine myself using a gun in any way i wish i could slit my wrists, not as the attempt itself really but just mess myself up and give into that desire one last time because why not at that point, i would slit up my whole body, and if i ever decided to jump i'll do it from the tallest building i can find, which wouldn't be the most difficult, to make sure my body splatters like a bug on a windshield and breaks completely once and for all instead of slowly making me feel like im falling apart daily anymore. so i get the graphic desire