I've cried last night

[kuroshimi]

Hello again.

So, when I got in bed, I am stuck in thinking about how miserable I am and how I actually didn't live life to the fullest. For the first time in a long time, tears welled up in my eyes.

I was deeply sad about everything that has happened to me throughout my entire existence. I came to the conclusion that I was never happy in life. Got the feeling that things won't get any better, so, what's the point?

Maybe there is still some hope left, but each time there is less of it. I'm complete failure and there is nothing left in this world for me.

 

[WrathfulGloom32]

I was addicted to crying at some point, it was something I'd do for hours everyday before sleep, for months upon months. Now it rarely happens.

 

[ObsidianWatcher]

No one can say what the future holds, but the past lays its weight upon us nonetheless. I know the feeling of looking forward and seeing only more pain in store. We know it intimately, so of course it's easier to recognize. That said, pain is not the only inevitability. There will be good along with the bad. We make the choice every day to take another step into that unknown, but sometimes even one step becomes more effort than we can bear.

 

[Dr.Duck]

I understand. Crying is a rare occurrence in my life but when it happens it's hard. Things don't seem as worth it each day. People only get to see the happy me because at least with friends theres something.

 

[TimingOut]

 

[Jisatsu]

I ... got incredibly high last night and not even that couldnt stop me from crying my eyes out and wishing time would fast forward to the day I wanna die.

 

[beyond.space]

I've wasted all my youth up until this point. I'm 26 now and I have 0 achievements, almost no fun experiences, few friends, few interesting things. I'll never not regret this and I actually tried to no waste all of it, but I got into my first relationship when i was 22 and it ruined me and wasted my time further, it was abusive and toxic and now I'm as depressed as I've ever been, I cry everyday, I keep trying to have fun but nothing ever satisfies. This is just a constant struggle that never pays off for some reason, even though almost all the people that I know have had enjoyable experiences throughout these years, I seem to be the only exception and I can't take it anymore. I actually am a loser and it looks like I can't change it no matter what I do.