Venting I’ve brought this upon myself.

[sunny.sativa]

I've wanted to join the Navy since I was a sophomore in high school.

Last week, I made the official decision to begin the process. I stopped using marijuana immediately (yeah I know, keep your thoughts to yourself on that) and initiated my own physical training, in order to meet the requirements for entry.

A recruiter once told me that they can't see my medical history when I enlist. I thought that sounded innacurate, but I went with it, seeing as he's been a sailor for 11 years and I didn't know squat.

I've been researching it and because of my hospitalizations and medications and diagnoses and .. self harm scars, I'd be denied immediately. He gave me false information. False hope.

This is what's been keeping me going. This was my goal and my dream and I don't see myself enjoying life any other way, honestly. It was gonna set me up.

I'd have a purpose. I'd have an important job to do everyday and I'd put 100% into it. I'd get wholesome benefits and a promised retirement after only 20 years of service. I'd travel the world and experience the sea.

I dreamed of having a fast, new car afterwards. I thought I had a chance. And I was feeling amazing today. This one really hurts.

I can't cope right now.

 

[Halo13]

That's terrible. I can't believe some idiot told you that. Wish I could take away all your disappointment.

 

[Dead beat dad]

I've wanted to join the Navy since I was a sophomore in high school.

Last week, I made the official decision to begin the process. I stopped using marijuana immediately (yeah I know, keep your thoughts to yourself on that) and initiated my own physical training, in order to meet the requirements for entry.

A recruiter once told me that they can't see my medical history when I enlist. I thought that sounded innacurate, but I went with it, seeing as he's been a sailor for 11 years and I didn't know squat.

I've been researching it and because of my hospitalizations and medications and diagnoses and .. self harm scars, I'd be denied immediately. He gave me false information. False hope.

This is what's been keeping me going. This was my goal and my dream and I don't see myself enjoying life any other way, honestly. It was gonna set me up.

I'd have a purpose. I'd have an important job to do everyday and I'd put 100% into it. I'd get wholesome benefits and a promised retirement after only 20 years of service. I'd travel the world and experience the sea.

I dreamed of having a fast, new car afterwards. I thought I had a chance. And I was feeling amazing today. This one really hurts.

I can't cope right now.

Similar thing happend to me brother. Given wrong info and subsequently declined in medical grounds.
I was crushed and I feel your pain.

With the benefit of hindsight I have been able to reflect on things and I have wondered if maybe for me, this was actually for the best. Given the levels of PTSD you get in military personnel, I wonder if this might have led me to do harm to others and myself unnecessarily.

Good luck brother, I hope some light will shine on you.

DBD

 

[sunny.sativa]

That's terrible. I can't believe some idiot told you that. Wish I could take away all your disappointment.

Thank you. You're really kind (:

Similar thing happend to me brother. Given wrong info and subsequently declined in medical grounds.
I was crushed and I feel your pain.

With the benefit of hindsight I have been able to reflect on things and I have wondered if maybe for me, this was actually for the best. Given the levels of PTSD you get in military personnel, I wonder if this might have led me to do harm to others and myself unnecessarily.

Good luck brother, I hope some light will shine on you.

DBD

Thank you for your words. I appreciate this and I'm sorry you experienced it as well. Much love

Fun fact, I'm actually a sister ;) haha

 

[Dead beat dad]

Thank you. You're really kind (:

Thank you for your words. I appreciate this and I'm sorry you experienced it as well. Much love

Fun fact, I'm actually a sister ;) haha

Good luck... Sister...

DBD

 

[Taylor]

I was training to be a Navy SEAL and was in incredible shape when I was 19, and passed all the physical requirements and everything. It was short lived though as I literally destroyed my body from pushing myself and training so hard, which is what ultimately led to my demise.

 

[sunny.sativa]

I was training to be a Navy SEAL and was in incredible shape when I was 19, and passed all the physical requirements and everything. It was short lived though as I literally destroyed my body from pushing myself and training so hard, which is what ultimately led to my demise.

Woah, I've been training pretty hard, myself. Thank you for sharing this, I'll take it easier.