Venting I've been doing better yet I still wanna do it

[AnonymousL]

I've been in a better place. Yet some days I don't trust myself.

I feel like one of these days I will end it in an impulse.

 

[derpyderpins]

Great to hear you're in a better place!

I think that fear is natural. You've been down, probably a lot, so sometimes improvement just seems too good to be true because down became what we were used to.

CTB can still be logical and justified if you've improved, but try to game plan a bit with yourself that impulse is not the right way to go about it. If you've gotten to a better place, you always could get to an even better place, so it's worth a minute to consider even in a bad state.

 

[beyondeternal]

I've been in a better place. Yet some days I don't trust myself.

I've been feeling almost the same right before my attempt. Like, "it's wrong that I'm doing better, it mustn't be this way, I must finish what I've started"

 

[Themogger]

I've been in a better place. Yet some days I don't trust myself.

I feel like one of these days I will end it in an impulse.

Always have a plan, so even if on impulse you won't have regrets

 

[AnonymousL]

Great to hear you're in a better place!

I think that fear is natural. You've been down, probably a lot, so sometimes improvement just seems too good to be true because down became what we were used to.

CTB can still be logical and justified if you've improved, but try to game plan a bit with yourself that impulse is not the right way to go about it. If you've gotten to a better place, you always could get to an even better place, so it's worth a minute to consider even in a bad state.

Thank you for your words.

I've been feeling almost the same right before my attempt. Like, "it's wrong that I'm doing better, it mustn't be this way, I must finish what I've started"

That's exactly me right now. Because I always end up regretting that I didn't do it when things go bad again