Story It’s time

[ForeverBroken]

Hey everyone. It's time for me to go. Not exactly what I thought I was going to be doing today but that's okay. I can't take the pain in my life anymore so it's time to end it. I can't say any one thing has led me to this decision. It's been a lifetime of events and circumstances. Even though I've had several shitty things happen to me, I can say that I've probably had a good life. I've had the best husband who loves me and would do anything for me. I've had two wonderful sons who I would literally die for if necessary. But even with all this, I am miserable and lonely. I don't find joy in anything anymore. Everyday is a struggle. So today I'm going to end it. I want all of you lovely people to know that I have truly enjoyed this forum. I found acceptance here that I couldn't find in real life. Even though I'm ending my own life, I wish all of you could find whatever necessary to make yours better. I know that's unrealistic. I just hate for others to be suffering and unhappy. Well I'm going to sign off of here. I'm going to leave soon to drive to the bridge that I'm going to jump from. I may come back on once more to say that I'm jumping. Just depends on how things are going. I love all of you and I hope your day is going better than mine.

 

[sadlyexisting]

I wish you the best, may you find the peace you are looking for!

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point. I hope you find peace.

 

[Groundhog_Day]

You seem like a very kind and caring person. You replied to one of my posts a while back, thank you for doing that. Sorry you are going through such a bad time. Wish I could help you more.

 

[ForeverBroken]

Well I'm back. It didn't go as planned. I got to the bridge and I just couldn't do it. I froze. I just stood there and looked out at the water and just went blank. I can't even die without screwing it up.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me suicide just really just isn't straightforward to go through with at all, jumping sounds like a terrifying method to me personally, I hate how it's so difficult to die on our own terms. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Groundhog_Day]

Well I'm back. It didn't go as planned. I got to the bridge and I just couldn't do it. I froze. I just stood there and looked out at the water and just went blank. I can't even die without screwing it up.

For what it's worth, I'm glad you're still here. I had a similar problem today. Went to the woods planning to partial, but indecision and si won out.

 

[ForeverBroken]

You seem like a very kind and caring person. You replied to one of my posts a while back, thank you for doing that. Sorry you are going through such a bad time. Wish I could help you more.

Thank you for your kindness. Still here obviously. I guess it wasn't meant to be today.

To me suicide just really just isn't straightforward to go through with at all, jumping sounds like a terrifying method to me personally, I hate how it's so difficult to die on our own terms. But anyway I wish you the best.

Thank you for the well wishes. It was a lot harder than I anticipated. Maybe next time I'll be better prepared mentally.

For what it's worth, I'm glad you're still here. I had a similar problem today. Went to the woods planning to partial, but indecision and si won out.

I'm glad you're still here as well. Dying is such a hard thing.

 

[Tears in Rain]

Well I'm back. It didn't go as planned. I got to the bridge and I just couldn't do it. I froze. I just stood there and looked out at the water and just went blank. I can't even die without screwing it up.

It happens most people, it's tough to go through with it.
Sorry it came to that, but hope you find peace eventually.

 

[oddetoad]

Well I'm back. It didn't go as planned. I got to the bridge and I just couldn't do it. I froze. I just stood there and looked out at the water and just went blank. I can't even die without screwing it up.

Don't be so hard on yourself it's the hardest thing we can do in this life that some of us feel forced to do which is insane that we are forced to take an action like suicide to end this meaningless existence

Please choose a better method though - you're worth more than this brutal death
Jumping is not ideal method

 

[ForeverBroken]

Don't be so hard on yourself it's the hardest thing we can do in this life that some of us feel forced to do which is insane that we are forced to take an action like suicide to end this meaningless existence

Please choose a better method though - you're worth more than this brutal death
Jumping is not ideal method

Thank you