It’s so hard to live when all I want to do is die.

[L9my]

Gun laws are quite strict in my country. If I would live in america, I would have most likely blown my brains out long time ago.

real.

 

[rehm2k3]

Not really most men just want hook ups

nope, it's just that most men don't meet your standards. You wouldn't mind hooking up with a dude with model tier looks.

 

[livingonlytodie]

Gun laws are quite strict in my country. If I would live in america, I would have most likely blown my brains out long time ago.

I'm slowly reaching that point as well. Should I leave behind a note?

nope, it's just that most men don't meet your standards. You wouldn't mind hooking up with a dude with model tier looks.

Not true. The other guys I meet just want sex & that's all. It's honestly a shame on how much I'd give to get a guy to notice & love me lmao. I'd suck his dick everyday if he asked.

 

[divinemistress36]

nope, it's just that most men don't meet your standards. You wouldn't mind hooking up with a dude with model tier looks.

Im sorry you feel that way

 

[L9my]

I'm slowly reaching that point as well. Should I leave behind a note?

I would say, go for it if a note brings you joy.

Spoiler: extra

I dunno, I used my note as a place to vent about topics, I could never vent about to people who knew me while I was alive. And to truly be angry about the fuckery I have to go through just to ctb.
I even recorded a video, it's ready to be made public on youtube at any moment. It truly pisses me off that pro lifers run this shit.
(sorry that turned into a vent, but I feel it would be wrong of me to delete that you know. It'd be like watering myself down)

I would say do what you want.

 

[livingonlytodie]

I would say, go for it if a note brings you joy.

Spoiler: extra

I dunno, I used my note as a place to vent about topics, I could never vent about to people who knew me while I was alive. And to truly be angry about the fuckery I have to go through just to ctb.
I even recorded a video, it's ready to be made public on youtube at any moment. It truly pisses me off that pro lifers run this shit.
(sorry that turned into a vent, but I feel it would be wrong of me to delete that you know. It'd be like watering myself down)

I would say do what you want.

I started a YouTube channel to document my last days alive once I become homeless but I'm pretty sure no one I know will come across it.

 

[Andrew10]

Kinda late here. Who knew that suicide would be a challenge for many here and they would have to pretend to like life to avoid conflicts with others and end up locked up in centers or any place where their freedom is deprived and they are under restriction and a lot of supervision. Simple and basic things require a great physical and mental effort while demotivation, sadness and laziness run through our bodies. Many are already beyond tired, it feels like being a zombie, like being in a game over screen and not being able to exit the game. I relate to every person in this thread.

To you livingonlytodie and the other users who are seeing this message as well, I want to send you love and strength so that you can cope even if it is at least one day, you have my support whatever your path is, I wish you all the best until my last breath. Sending a big hug to all of you.

- Peace ♥

 

[livingonlytodie]

Kinda late here. Who knew that suicide would be a challenge for many here and they would have to pretend to like life to avoid conflicts with others and end up locked up in centers or any place where their freedom is deprived and they are under restriction and a lot of supervision. Simple and basic things require a great physical and mental effort while demotivation, sadness and laziness run through our bodies. Many are already beyond tired, it feels like being a zombie, like being in a game over screen and not being able to exit the game. I relate to every person in this thread.

To you livingonlytodie and the other users who are seeing this message as well, I want to send you love and strength so that you can cope even if it is at least one day, you have my support whatever your path is, I wish you all the best until my last breath. Sending a big hug to all of you.

- Peace ♥

Thanks Andrew10! I FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[SmilingNoMore]

I'm just as tired, too tired to even reply. But here goes, all I can do is to send you love and hugs. Another day is starting on this side of the word. What can we do, I used to say we can only laugh or cry, I guess the day will soon tell ... hugs everyone

 

[livingonlytodie]

I'm just as tired, too tired to even reply. But here goes, all I can do is to send you love and hugs. Another day is starting on this side of the word. What can we do, I used to say we can only laugh or cry, I guess the day will soon tell ... hugs everyone

Thank you so much for your words of encouragement & I wish nothing but happiness & peace for you as well

 

[NonEssential]

No I could get a gun as soon as I turn 21 I just hate I have to wait two years!

I envy anyone who has the opportunity to ctb with a gun.

 

[livingonlytodie]

I envy anyone who has the opportunity to ctb with a gun.

Me too. It's a guaranteed way out & it's way too hard to mess up.

 

[TerminallyBroken]

The one thing I desire above all else, is an early death. It is so difficult pretending to care about life when all I want is to disappear & stop existing. I don't have any friends or a boyfriend so I don't really know why I'm still kicking. Hopefully I'll be gone soon.

Oh honey, I know how you feel. *hugs* It's such a shitty fucked up world we live in nowadays and it only seems like it's getting worse. I don't have a partner or friends either. Most of my friends leave me because I make them uncomfortable with my serious mental health issues or I'm just "too much to handle" or some shit like that. My ex has been gone 3 years and I still cry over her. So you're not alone. Idk if that helps but it helps me to know I'm not alone in feeling down about being single and lonely.

 

[livingonlytodie]

Oh honey, I know how you feel. *hugs* It's such a shitty fucked up world we live in nowadays and it only seems like it's getting worse. I don't have a partner or friends either. Most of my friends leave me because I make them uncomfortable with my serious mental health issues or I'm just "too much to handle" or some shit like that. My ex has been gone 3 years and I still cry over her. So you're not alone. Idk if that helps but it helps me to know I'm not alone in feeling down about being single and lonely.

Do you wanna get on the phone?

 

[TerminallyBroken]

Do you wanna get on the phone?

What do you mean?

 

[livingonlytodie]

What do you mean?

Wanna call?

 

[TerminallyBroken]

Wanna call?

Um sure, but I'm not sure how that works here

Um sure, but I'm not sure how that works here

What interests you in a partner?

 

[livingonlytodie]

Um sure, but I'm not sure how that works here

What interests you in a partner?

I'm a male is that okay?

 

[TerminallyBroken]

I'm a male is that okay?

Maybe

 

[theolivanderroach]

I don't mean to discredit anyones struggles but hearing women talk about being single is low-key frustrating, you have no idea how many options you have. Whether you want those options or not is another issue.

Options? That's like looking at a landfill and saying you have so many options of stuff you can pick from. It's all shit. Yeah maybe there's ONE nice thing there you'll like, but it reeks from being in a landfill and who wants to dig through that shit (which could be dangerous too) in hope of finding it? Also wanting is a pretty big deal... it's not even a viable option if the woman doesnt want it...