It's so hard to do anything

[Rose Mine]

It took me 3 hours to get up and take a shower. It's been so hard to do anything and I am barely showering anymore and still skipping out on brushing my teeth sometimes even though I just got 6 cavaties treated after years of neglect. I'm so disintrested in everything and I just do things to keep myself busy not because I enjoy it. I have a group today too and I am thinking about skipping out because it just seems to hard right now and I feel like I can't do anything.

I wish there was an easy fix. I want to be alive with my family and boyfriend but it feels like suicide is the only option sometimes. It's been so long of me having depression and I don't want to deal with it for more years to come. A lot of days are a constant battle inside my head and just dealing with so much shit inside that I can't handle. I don't even have a hard life I can only imagine how I will be when my life actually is harder.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I can understand this. It just took me 5 hours to "talk myself into" taking a shower (I just finished). Last was 4 days ago. It's pretty much like that everytime. Same goes for shaving, going to the grocery store, doing laundry, even cooking some food. It's hard to do anything anymore. It's all just meaningless really.

 

[Jdieiejdjaow]

I'm feeling exhausted as well. I white knuckle it every second. I shower every other day. The rest, I force myself as I know I'll feel good after I do it. The only problem is I live in a complex trauma situation and thus it makes it unbearable.

 

[Reflection]

I relate a lot and it has gotten so bad that sometimes I would even give up halfway while thinking about what to reply to a post on here lol, my mind is like "what's the point"

 

[grapevoid]

ughhh the apathy! This has to be one of the hardest depression symptoms. It's a "joke" all my friends and family are aware of in the mornings I always say "I've only been awake for X amount of time, I'm still coming to terms with being alive" because honestly that's what it feels like, like I'm calibrating to the fact that I have to actually be alive before I can even do anything.

I relate a lot and it has gotten so bad that sometimes I would even give up halfway while thinking about what to reply to a post on here lol, my mind is like "what's the point"

Me and explaining to my sister last night why I haven't been responding to her texts… I was going to then I just .. didn't feel like it lol

 

[Rose Mine]

I'm calibrating to the fact that I have to actually be alive before I can even do anything.

That's exactly what it is. The mornings are always hard for me and was part of the reason I hardly went to high school. Like I am dealing with the fact I am alive I can't do anything else before that passes lmao

 

[Baisley]

I know this feeling very well. It takes me forever to shower also and going to the store is really hard for me. I will wait until, I literally have nothing left and have to go. It's a vicious cycle. I am exhausted all the time. You definitely aren't alone.