Venting It's so hard to ctb that I'm considering joining the Ukraine war

[LastDayOnEarth]

I can't believe how hard it is to actually die, I might just join the war and get blown up, at this point I dont care. But it's just that self inflicting one's death is so hard that having someone else end your life seems more plausible.

In the moment I might regret cause obviously I'm not Rambo, but at least that would be a point of no return, which is where I wanna be

 

[Hvergelmir]

but at least that would be a point of no return, which is where I wanna be

I strongly considered going there. You ought to know that most soldiers do return, and the risk of injury is high. It's not a good suicide plan, but it could be a good way to leverage ones disregard for ones own life.
It's straight forward to apply online, through ILDU.

Just don't go there with the intent of being reckless or useless. You don't want your own disregard for safety to kill others.

 

[etherealgoddess]

I can't believe how hard it is to actually die, I might just join the war and get blown up, at this point I dont care. But it's just that self inflicting one's death is so hard that having someone else end your life seems more plausible.

In the moment I might regret cause obviously I'm not Rambo, but at least that would be a point of no return, which is where I wanna be

You're more likely to get injured and traumatized than die. Only go if you really believe in the cause.