Venting It's so cruel that I can't die

[rigsid]

I've realised that I get hardly any joy out of life anymore. More than that every second of existence is anguish. My life just feels like I'm some machine that only has sentience so it can best make money for other people, and suffer.

I'd probably feel better about it if I could at least talk honestly to someone, but say the wrong words and suddenly your situation is made a thousand times worse in the name of safety.

I'd probably feel better if the option to die with medical assistance was available to me. That if it got too bad I could leave at any time. But that's not a thing.

As it is most of my days are empty of anything happy. I've been promised solutions for years that have never come.

Society wants me to just accept living in suffering, as if there's no alternative. I'm too young they'd say. She hasn't considered all her options. But well, maybe i don't want to give it another decade of pain, in some vague hope that it might get better.

I don't know what cruel god drew my soul up into this hell but please can the pain just end. I hope I get the strength to do that myself soon.

 

[DenseWoodsCadaver]

you're not alone, I hope you find peace, whether its ctb or anything

 

[rigsid]

you're not alone, I hope you find peace, whether its ctb or anything

Thank you. It's refreshing to be able to say something about this and have it followed up with something human rather than some cold risk assessment liability question.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand as I always find it so torturous to exist, all I want is peace from the pain and suffering of existing, I hope you find the relief you search for.