dembe
No lights, No music, JUST ANGER
- Feb 13, 2023
- 15
A YouTuber (I dont remember his name he was all up in the camera for most of the vid tho) made a video about how awful here was, talking about how people were pushing each other to die and it was a cult and yadda yadda but to be honest this has to be the best thing that happened to me. I tried looking for a forum like this, one that the people understood and could see truly how bad life was and how cruel it was to force people who did not ask to be born to stay alive, but everywhere I went they tried to "fix" me. "See your therapist!! talk to a loved one!! things get better!!!" spat at me in different forms over and over and over again. I'd never felt so dismissed on those sites, they made me feel even more alone because I always felt like I was the only one who acknowledged that life wasn't this cutesy little struggle like they painted and depression wasn't just solved with "thinking happy thoughts". I feel a little less crazy on here which is ironic in itself because I came here looking to die. I'm not ready yet but knowing I wasn't completely alone in my thoughts was nice to know.