Nineinchnails
Man im tired of life
- Nov 13, 2023
- 9
So, I'm someone with BPD, and recently i got in a sort of relationship dynamic with someone where i was expecting to know him better, and eventually get into a loving relationship. But after him telling me he didn't want anything with me, i just can't seem to feel anything that isn't hurt, that isn't pain. My chest feels so compressed, this was the last strand, the last push. I think I'll ctb next week, i recently managed to get 1kg of SN, I'll do the blood experiment and quickly, the next day, I'll ctb. I can't handle this pain anymore, my family ruined me and my brain, and the pain is so harsh that i can't stand it anymore, i can't live in this society, i couldn't adapt. I'll keep you updated with my plan
