Hello, I'm new to this site if you couldn't already tell and new to venting in general, so sorry if my writing is janky. I've never been good with words.
My entire "life" so to speak was never a true life at all. I've never had friends, a family who cared, hobbies, or anything that I should've had to have a true meaningful existence. I'm more so a husk of a human being watching the world slowly go by without me. I always wonder if I'm just the universe's punching bag if anything and constantly question why I'm even here.
I turned 19 on Sunday and I kept telling myself I'd do it, but now that time has passed I feel even more like I'm in Limbo. I know I'm too much of a wuss to do anything thought and that I'm just wasting away rotting in my room.
I view it less like CTB and more like taking the trash out. A meaningless hoarders pile that they'll be better off without and such hoard would be better sitting in a landfill far away from civilization.
I just wish I could've been at least something to someone, but I know it'll never happen
My entire "life" so to speak was never a true life at all. I've never had friends, a family who cared, hobbies, or anything that I should've had to have a true meaningful existence. I'm more so a husk of a human being watching the world slowly go by without me. I always wonder if I'm just the universe's punching bag if anything and constantly question why I'm even here.
I turned 19 on Sunday and I kept telling myself I'd do it, but now that time has passed I feel even more like I'm in Limbo. I know I'm too much of a wuss to do anything thought and that I'm just wasting away rotting in my room.
I view it less like CTB and more like taking the trash out. A meaningless hoarders pile that they'll be better off without and such hoard would be better sitting in a landfill far away from civilization.
I just wish I could've been at least something to someone, but I know it'll never happen
