Discussion It’s my dream to fade away with N

[CemetryGates]

I think the recent supply issues with N has made me realise that it's definitely the way I want to go, despite it's difficulty to obtain due to finances and potential customs complications it's definitely the golden ticket out of here. I don't care if this place gets hate, If it wasn't for this website i'd probably have ended up hanging myself or taking a load of pills and ending up with life altering damage. I want to go out on my terms, my desired way which is N. How i'll get it is another thing but that is the way I want to go.
I thought I would write about my final hours as it gives me comfort and maybe some people might be able to relate to this feeling.
Anyway, when all would be set and done, notes and letters written and all other matters handled I would have a bath and try and relax as possible. After that I would get into a warm pair of pyjamas and get into bed with a hot water bottle and snuggle in. Then I would listen to my favourite albums for the last time (Unknown Pleasures by Joy Division, Revolver by the Beatles, Wish you were here by Pink floyd) I would then watch some cartoon shows like maybe Family Guy or South park to ease my mind a little and then finally when i'm ready take the N and lay back and fade away, with it all my problems and all the noise. All the ties to my life released. No menial tasks to think about, No more embarrassing memories, No more anxiety or depression or Work the next morning, I would simply cease to exist and fade away.

 

[hankbank3928]

I completely agree with you. That sounds very pleasant to just drop all your worries and fade away.

 

[CemetryGates]

I completely agree with you. That sounds very pleasant to just drop all your worries and fade away.

I look forward to the day where I can hopefully do it.
I'm sorry life has driven you like me to this too

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that if I had the option of N, it would be very comforting. All that I want is to peacefully pass away and be free from all suffering. No one should have to resort to risky methods to end their pain, we all deserve the option of a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Message In A Bottle]

It's how I prefer to go as well...just sounds like a dream come true. I love sleeping, so it's my ideal death.

 

[hankbank3928]

I look forward to the day where I can hopefully do it.
I'm sorry life has driven you like me to this too

Thank you.

I too look forward to the day I can do it. Wishing us both the best :)

 

[Sunset Limited]

It's shitty that there are so few methods that can actually be alternatives to N. Anyone over the age of 30 should be able to get on the bus whenever they want. This is my opinion. I don't want to get into a long discussion about this. No quote, thanks.

 

[CemetryGates]

It's how I prefer to go as well...just sounds like a dream come true. I love sleeping, so it's my ideal death.

Me too, you summed it up exactly:)

I think that if I had the option of N, it would be very comforting. All that I want is to peacefully pass away and be free from all suffering. No one should have to resort to risky methods to end their pain, we all deserve the option of a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Thank you for the kind words I wish you the best too