it’s like 2021 wants me gone (vent?)

[rosie]

may, hospital for 3 nights with a kidney infection and that's where it all started going downhill. moved in with bf september, began drinking a bottle of vodka a night if not more. finally decided to get help, started sertraline which landed me in hospital twice in 2 weeks, one for sh and the other for an attempt. bf broke up with me after that then kicked me out the house, now living on my parents living room floor. got assaulted and mugged on the way back from a friends, started letting people use my body just to make myself feel better, and i'm surprised nothing worse has happened to me yet. stuck with no direction in life so i yet again find myself on this website and i just see no way out for myself. i've been trying for years to not feel like this but nothing has changed, i just want it all to be over

 

[Crazy4u]

too many traumatic events in a short period of time. Sorry to hear that. You are a very strong person. You should be proud of yourself.

 

[rosie]

too many traumatic events in a short period of time. Sorry to hear that. You are a very strong person. You should be proud of yourself.

thank u man, it's just honestly nice to hear that this isn't all in my head and it's actually valid. i really appreciate it and hope you're doing ok

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you have been through a lot. Life is just so horrible. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much, after all we are all human and there is only so much we can take. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[TooConscious]

There is massive eugenics going on and people need to accept this, I know it's hard but you really think the elite care about you?
Not only do they want you dead they want to gain the maximum amount of pain anguish suffering despair out of us as it's their food/pleasure.
So they create a hell and people like us are a perfect essence of suffering for them.