Its just pushing through hell

[jussrav]

So I am in hell. When I sleeo wake up numerous times. If I lie there I get worse I need to get up have water then can sleep ifvi dont I get worse then cant sleep. My flat mate who doctors instructed looks after my meds my antidepressants has lost them. So now I have none doctorvwony give to me. I am dmsuffering severe long covid stomach pains , stabbing pains in chest. I will be non functional all day as I havent slept fully. Everything I do peoplevi see put me down crisis teams, doctors. My psychiatrist holds the key to changing my meds but won't see me till November. I am now thinking take an overdose tonight I've had enough. My mental health is getting worse everyday. As I speak to you I am exhausted I couldn't even sleep and rest that extra hour up at 2am. Have to take on the day with no sleep notjing and will suffer.