sylvey
worthless
- Oct 11, 2023
- 187
In the girls' bathroom, in the corner stall
Under the latch, an untidy scrawl
Written under the broken light
Through the haze of cannabis
And harsh, taunting calls
"I just want to die, just let it end."
Though everyone has surely seen it,
It seemed nobody cared at all
It's just another piece of gossip
To be whispered in the halls
Clearly I'm just your "typical angsty teen"
With my "typical angsty teen" thoughts
With my "typical angsty teen" clothes
And my own typical "angsty teen life"
That I just want to leave behind to rot
I can't do it anymore, endlessly though I try
But futile are my efforts,
Lost from the very beginning
Was the battle I so tirelessly fought
I wasn't ignorant, just so, so weak
But there is no suffering
That yields any meaningful reason
No point in asking the fruitless "why"
Like "Why is it this way?"
I wouldn't ask if I dared
"Why won't anyone help?"
And I now know it's because nobody cared
Not enough at least to have faith in my pleas,
Choosing instead to run scared.
I'm sure you see my reasoning,
The logic behind ending my life
You'd never ask "why" to a robber
Unless you want his blade in your skin
There is no greater enemy or ally indeed,
Whether you bleed out and lose or make them bleed and win
No greater mercy or danger,
In times of peace or in strife
Than the cold but warm embrace of death
And a cold, steely knife.
Under the latch, an untidy scrawl
Written under the broken light
Through the haze of cannabis
And harsh, taunting calls
"I just want to die, just let it end."
Though everyone has surely seen it,
It seemed nobody cared at all
It's just another piece of gossip
To be whispered in the halls
Clearly I'm just your "typical angsty teen"
With my "typical angsty teen" thoughts
With my "typical angsty teen" clothes
And my own typical "angsty teen life"
That I just want to leave behind to rot
I can't do it anymore, endlessly though I try
But futile are my efforts,
Lost from the very beginning
Was the battle I so tirelessly fought
I wasn't ignorant, just so, so weak
But there is no suffering
That yields any meaningful reason
No point in asking the fruitless "why"
Like "Why is it this way?"
I wouldn't ask if I dared
"Why won't anyone help?"
And I now know it's because nobody cared
Not enough at least to have faith in my pleas,
Choosing instead to run scared.
I'm sure you see my reasoning,
The logic behind ending my life
You'd never ask "why" to a robber
Unless you want his blade in your skin
There is no greater enemy or ally indeed,
Whether you bleed out and lose or make them bleed and win
No greater mercy or danger,
In times of peace or in strife
Than the cold but warm embrace of death
And a cold, steely knife.